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same goes for mayumi who also started off as a yonah expy but she's the one i had less trouble developing she's honestly really fun to write and i have a lot of (fucked up but exciting) plans for her

+ i've gotten to a point where i'm really happy with my story so far now w rein. bro deadass started off as a brother nier expy with reinfiel lore carrying over from my yumeship that got out of control. but he's so much of his own guy now so i'm very happy

so faking dramatic omggggg

no new art you can get my embarrassing yaoi instead this is orfiel pov about rein

wholesome yaoi is going to kill the patient.... he needs toxic t4t yaoi to live........

do i have a lot of mentally ill gay trans man ocs in a toxic homoerotic situationship...? yes.... do i have enough...? probably not

rein/orfiel is funny because orfiel is technically a vampire and drinking from rein's wrist is basically like oral sex to him

ok i get to post the uncensored one for this i love drawing tdick

need to do a bush chart w my ocs

like i have lore justification on how mordred transitioned but with rein its just vibes

debating on making orfiel a no op trans guy. why not. i know rein should have massive enormous tdick but i have not thought abt where the fuck he'd even get that

i havent been drawing a lot </3 i miss him

eveyrtime i think abt the state of arthurian retellings i get sewerslidal THIS IS WHY I READ MORE MEDLIT THAN RETELLINGS

i'm not saying ppl can't write about these things but there's a problem when you got authors like Marion Zimmer Bradley literally using her book to document her nd her husbands IRL sexual abuse of their daughter its so sickening

god im having war flashbacks to when i made my mordred resource post. imo i have a strong stomach for dark/taboo topics, i've been into old fart lit and mythology my entire life but some authors out there have gotten away with literally just. publishing CSAM. its honestly insane

like i think messaging and authorial intent is incredibly important esp when analyzing these things, whether it be media/literary analysis or self reflection in our own work. like i know this very well bc i vent about my own CSA experiences thru my OCs

and to exonerate the men around her, particularly arthur, as free from any wrongdoings and sometimes mordred or her other sons (namely agravaine) (which is again a sin from TH White)

the trope of morgause being an incestuous rapist is literally misogynistic af like the source is from TH White and she's depicted like that in order to villify her (even though in le morte d'arthur SHE was the one being raped by arthur +

there is a lot to be said irt medieval misogyny and how women were treated in that era but a lot of fantasy authors don't even depict medieval misogyny. they write their OWN misogyny on full display.

like the source material itself already contains incest (primarily with mordred's conception in post vulgate / malory) and rape, even pedophilia (with merlin preying on a 12 yr old nimue in vulgate)

man i literally dgaf if someone chose to include c/sa or incest as a subject matter in their book video game or tv show or whatever. like the inclusion isn't the problem. it's how it's treated. like my beef with a lot of arthurian retellings in how it depicts C/SA is largely because of misogyny

depiction of incest sexual violence pedophilia etc it's one thing thats whatever. but it's the /shipping/ specifically that sets me off and are my hard boundaries nd what i personally don't want to see and i try my best to avoid it.

anyways, what ppl do in their own personal private time is none of my business and these are just my opinions. i'm a horror fan and a dark fantasy fan and i do also enjoy fucked up toxic dynamics myself. i /write/ them. i just dont fuck with pro-incest ppl and pedos and pedo apologists

its really the self proclaimed proshitters that annoy me the most thats why i have proship dni in my bio but i will never take their made up language seriously. + they're very not well read either all of their arguments boil down to like. anti intellectual faux woke nonsense.

like mordred's backstory from le morte d'arthur is that he is Literally an evil incest rape baby + he's a terrorist to women in various medlit texts like post-vulgate. and i've read too much arthurian retellings that explore incest and sexual violence. I Know What I'm Talking About. lmao.

ppl on nier twt have me blocked coz i "can't separate fiction from reality" bc i'm very critical of how writers depict sexual violence etc like mfer excalibur 1981 is my favorite movie of all time and my entire personality revolves around Mordred of all characters.

like depiction =/= endorsement and i've also written a buttload of dark topics and read such and such etc. i'm a mythology fan lmao i've read a LOT and written abt c/sa and inces myself. but sensationalizing this kind of thing and turning it into a porn category is what sets me off holy shit.

it was to comment on how their turbulent relationship came from deep trauma and stems from patriarchal violence. bc it's a system of abuse. Incest and pedophilia aren't a taboo sexualities they're tools of the patriarchy and white supremacy.

"its just fiction its not real it doesnt mean anything" yes i know they're pixels i'm more concerned about adding incest dynamics in places where it literally didn't even exist in the source material. when grrm wrote about cersei/jaime it wasn't to sensationalize incest

my eyes legit contorted into horror wym people ship ver/so and alic/ia in e*xp33 are yall crazy 😭we can't have complicated tragic sibling dynamics w/o ppl turning it into incest shipping im losing my mind