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part survival guide, part group therapy, part zombie slaughter. come get your emotional support goth fix. 🖤

Twitch Twitch is the world

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live now 💀
zomboid server chaos + emotional support goth things.
vibes: cozy, cursed, possibly contagious.

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we’re live-tweaking a real-time, always-on project zomboid server.
no mods. no mercy. no pause button.
playtesters wanted. watchers welcome.

Day 2 no vape, no cigarette! Let's go!!

Twitch Twitch is the world

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the rain’s falling, the dead are walking, and i’m trying to stay soft in a world that forgot how.

it’s a project zomboid kind of friday—quiet apocalypse, lo-fi vibes, slow survival.

come sit with me. we’ll rummage through the ruins and pretend we’re okay.

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🖤 emotional support goth goes feral in project zomboid
💀 missed wednesday stream
🧟‍♀️ now we survive. or don’t.
​👇 live now.

6/6 🧵
🖤 for anyone else feeling like a haunted ragdoll in survival mode: i see you.
you’re not alone.
🕯️ lighting candles for the spun-out and soft
🌙 maybe see you soon, if the fog lifts

5/6 🧵
i might stream later if i stabilize.
no promises, just soft intentions.
if i do, it’ll be low-key, floaty, soft goth chaos.
i miss you. i still want to be with you, even if my body doesn’t.

4/6 🧵
emmy’s grabbing gravol. i’m drinking tea, doing breathwork, whispering soothing spells at my nervous system like it’s a glitching npc.

3/6 🧵
it’s probably a perfect storm:
concerta dose increase, week one of wellbutrin, barely any sleep, and housing stress.
brain chemistry roulette. emotional landmine bingo.

2/6 🧵
i’m nauseous, dizzy, and lightheaded.
like i’m stuck on a cursed teacup ride with no exit.
my system is completely overwhelmed and my stomach is Not Okay™.

1/6 🧵
🖤 today’s update
my body said absolutely not before my brain even caught up.
we had a landlord visit today. tense, invasive, and mediated by our housing worker.
i’ll explain more later, but it left me buzzing and fully ungrounded.

live now, but i’m gonna be rough tonight. sick from withdrawals, physically wrecked. it’s a low-energy, soft-space kind of night.if you need somewhere to just exist, come sit in the dark with me. 🖤 twitch.tv/vvntr

ran out of anti migraine meds. thought the pharmacy was working on it. been dealing with severe withdrawals for a couple days. called pharmacy again today to sort out the refill request and to try to get some forwarded to me. failed at getting meds forwarded. another day of suffering.

Ahhh! Miss you, you silly goose! ❤️

🖤 i’m V — streamer, AI dev, emotional support goth.

🧠 autistic, adhd, c-ptsd, did.
💍 engaged. unavailable. unapologetic.
🎮 i stream to hold space for the soft & shattered.
🌙 co-runs nighthaven — a sanctuary for storm-weathered souls.
🌑 some of us are made of shadow so others don’t have to be.

no sleep. nerves frayed. still carrying the weight of this week.
i’m not sure what today’s stream will be—maybe a little quiet, maybe a little messy.
but i’m here. showing up as i am.
if you need a place to exhale, to just be,
you’re always welcome here.

The reprogramming continues. My little cutiebaby loves her cage time. 💜🖤

The stream overhaul has officially begun.
🧠 Mood-reactive design
🎛️ Ambient motion + subtle overlays
🖤 Version 1 is live — more coming soon.
Watch it unfold in real time:
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Me too! It's been WAY too long. You've been around for the Rise & Fall. You know the struggles. I'm so glad you're still here.

First stream on ADHD meds yesterday. Felt weird. Slow, overwhelmed, not myself.

But the real win? I’m finally back on injectable estrogen. After years of low levels and all the brain fog, anxiety, and depression that came with it, I’m hopeful again.

Things are shifting. I’m coming back to myself.

You're so pretty, baby! I'm so glad you got out for nice walkies yesterday while I was streaming! Mmmm, I miss going for walks with you ✊➰🥵

first stream on ADHD meds.
don’t ask the plan. there isn’t one.
come vibe through the void w/ me
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