Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️

The answer is, slightly less fucked than we thought. The date has been pushed back 7 days. We have 10 days to find a place to live now

Today we find out just how fucked we are...

DM Dokuro fanart WIP

Their music has been helping me a lot lately (especially STILL HERE) so I figurer I'd draw their OC, although I'm not sure they use this design anymore. Probably the most interesting hairstyle I've ever drawn 😊

Will finish it this week probs

6 days remain, almost every lead we had has snapped. Time to start considering living in our cars

Got undone, back to nothing

10 more days remain. It's more or less over, we have a very small shot of finding a place to live, but it's not likely to work out. I do have a working car, so it's not the end of the world.

A good thing has potentially happened. Let's see if it's pulled away at the last second...

If not, I guess I'll be doing a 24 hour stream 🤷‍♀️ I'm not hopeful in the slightest, but I'll gladly do it

Only 19 more days left in the eye of the storm. Hopefully we can all survive what's to come

Criteria is it has to improve our situation and not be immediately overwritten/undone by another catastrophe.

What if something good happened? That would be very cool. If anything good happens within the next 3 weeks, im going to do another 24 hour stream in July.

Also, the rune text on the album cover does in fact say something in the rune set I made. Pay very close attention to my streams if you want to decipher it and other rune text like it :)

I have a vocalist in mind for the vocal tracks, we just need to sit down and record sometime. I don't necessarily want invest in vocal synths because I do still want to try and learn to sing, and I feel like if I buy a bunch of synths I'll never try again.

There will be no vocals on *this* album

Demo album coming soon. It's basically an album of all the half-baked songs that I can't finish yet for one reason or another — be it knowledge or lack of singing voice.

Hopefully I'll have enough finished songs for a proper album by the end of the year, but I at least wanted to do something

Now if only I could sing...

God I hate my voice so much.

Been listening to "STILL HERE" by DM Dokuro a lot lately. It resonates a lot with me, and it's one of the reasons I'm still here in my current capacity (it's complicated). Thank you Dokuro —💜

It's important enough that we would like to cover it some day. Already learned the melody on piano.

Staying positive is hard when things keep getting worse every day, and I've definitely slipped up a few times. I'm mostly trying to keep my negativity to myself these days, and I do think it's made me happier.

The future is so uncertain. It could be really good, it could be really bad. The next month will determine if we're in heaven or hell. And the worst part is there's nothing that I can do about it but hope. And somehow, I still haven't lost hope. I don't think I ever will.

Not asking for support here, although I am taking commissions. I'm gonna see about prepping a bunch of meals with cheap ingredients and see how that goes. There's no reason I should be going to bed hungry when we still have food in our pantry. This is 100% my responsibility, and I need to do better.

Food insecurity is not fun :c Don't worry too much, we have food for now; we just can't afford easy meals anymore, and I've had trouble cooking due to fatigue & pain.

I lost around 15 lbs over the last month (very bad for me), and that was kind of a wake up call that I need to try harder.

The reference only goes to the knees, so I was kinda lost from there 😔

Azula from Avatar the Last Airbender holding onto a dagger embedded in a cliff. Her hair and uniform wave in the winds

Working on drawing the iconic Azula scene as practice 💖

I kinda know what I'm doing with the top half, but the bottom half is kind of a mess 😞

Basically, our current landlords have to sell their house, so we need to leave (no exceptions), and then my partner got laid off (the sole income source)

The timing is incredible

Gotta stay strong, it's not time to give up yet. It's never time to give up

Trump's stupid tarrifs may have just ruined any chance of us getting a house...

We've got 1.5 months to find a new income source and a new place to live, the odds aren't looking great

Thankfully, I have a lot of family that would likely take us in, so we do have safety nets at least.

I am very high, and will surely regret posting this in the morning

Me: I'm gonna try to be more positive
The World: You sure about that? *throws a million gut punches all at once, and a stab wound for good measure*

Despite everything, I'm not going back on that promise. Things are hard, but we'll get through it. Even the worst case scenario has good in it

Here's a Pepsiman arrangement I just sorta made for fun in the lead up to my birthday stream 💖 I learned a lot making it, and it was a ton of fun, although it's just a demo. I'll polish it up and put it on my stream OST album as a bonus track in the near future. #music #pepsiman

I've cleared this account of posts I don't think are helpful 💚 I'm starting over here 💖

I'm purging this account of vent/negative posts; this is not how I want to present myself to the world. I'm still going to talk about my mental health struggles, but only in ways that benefit me and others. Endless self hate will get me nowhere.

I'm starting over again 💖 Love y'all 💚

The thought of streaming today is filling me with dread... It's been so long since I've been live and I think I've developed a small fear of streaming

Still gonna try to do it anyway since it almost always helps in the end

I have a serious problem with overworking myself, and my projects ballooning to overwhelming monstrosities. I don't know how to set realistic expectations for myself...

I guess this is what happens when you get called lazy your whole life 😔