Alice 🩷✨

Why is it so hard for humans to stop picking on differences and "not like me", instead of acknowledging, that once you rip off the skin, our bodies and blood looks the same.
Children don't divide in colours, religion or gender, if they are not educated that way.
They decide on "nice" and "not nice"

..."are you visiting home?", when I say, I go on vacation in Germany.

You cannot get it out of the head of people, that being German is more than the colour of your skin, although it's less unusual, that Americans all come in different looks.

But they are trying to erase that, too.

And I even get racism from Germans in JAPAN, where I "fit the look" and people approach my white friend, because she speaks German with me, then turn to me and ask "and why do YOU speak German so well?"

Of course the mean no harm by that. They never do. Not even when they ask...

When I visit another city, even or especially within Germany, people talk behind my back, because they think, I cannot understand them.
They speak to me in English and it's funny, how they continue to do so with a bewildered look, after I replied in GERMAN.

...than the average amount of Asian childhood trauma. And also the racism I had to and still have to laugh off every day. To this day!

People forget that the SECOND I step out of my work bubble, as soon as I step foot on the street, I am not viewed as German.

Suddenly I am just Asian.

Then there are voices saying "oh, this comment does not refer to YOU. You are Asian, well behaved, friendly, polite and follow the rules and you speak German fluently"

Yes.

Because I was BORN here. German is my first language. I did not flee from war or other awful things that caused me more...

...put SA in marriage under prosecution will absolutley NOT use me or any other woman as an excuse to be an asshole of history.

But the second he said, that he doesn't have to apologize for his blatant racist comment, because people only needed to ask their (white) daughters, what the problem was, he is referring to (foreigners), I almost lost it and yelled at my TV.

Because this bigott who LAUGHED and REFUSED to ...

Our chancellor said last week, that he was pleased that border control minimized the entry of refugees and asylum seeking people.
And now he wants to rid the "Stadtbild" of the "unpleasant problems" (meaning people who don't fit his idea of German)

I don't even know where to get started on this BS.

...their sweet peace with no stupid idiots around and people who don't care about other people suffering?

How do you guys sleep at night?

Never mind. Karma will fix it.

How can people be so cruel to one another?
It's the lack of empathy and humanity, yes, but still.
I don't consider myself a fan of people, but I would never REALLY start killing them off the planet or even worse: torture them to death.
Is this the difference between being a person, who wants...

...layer by layer.

I asked the universe for clarity so often and now that I can see so many more things and patterns and a bunch more of the ugly face of captilism and people upholding it...I feel more helpless and small than ever

Being new to this whole spiritual and human journey, of course I thought there would be one massive BOOM, Sailor Saturn style and after that humanity would start over new.

But alas, no, that's not how it works.

It's many explosions all over the planet and revelation of the unbelievable truth...

So I am still here, trying my best to stay positive and rosé.

I was told, that 2025 would be massive shifts and all and many hidden secrets would surface and humanity as a whole would change a lot.
The world as we know it would crumble and stop to exist.

I like "blinks" or "glimpses" ^-^

What?? T_T dem schmeißen wir Dreck vor die Tür!

Childhood!! 🩷✨

My RAGE, not face XDDDD

...inner dark side, that takes over temporarily far too often for my liking. But I am still learning and gathering stamina, stumbling through my inner landscape to find the truth.

...my mentors say, that I am not meant to be the warrior, though my face tells me otherwise.
People like me are supposed to hold up the light, share knowledge, give comfort, uphold hope and and shift negative energy to positive energy.

I often doubted myself, if I am fit to fight my...

And it makes me mad, sad, helpless, but not afraid.
Fear is tyrannies biggest tool, isn't it?

I learned, I cannot control, what happens, nor can I prevent it from happening.
I can only control, how I react to it.

I always wondered, if I shouldn't be taking action of some sort, but....

...and point out the bigger picture, that I so eagerly tried to figure out piece by piece.

Now I start to understand how the media I consumed so far all caught my attention, because they showed similar patterns and topics and while I always thought "nah, it's just fiction": it wasn't.

It isn't.

I have phases in my life, where I suck up info and knowledge and history like a sponge and then get overwhelmed with so many emotions (mostly rage), that I have to take a break for months or years.
Recently I saw so many videos about people, who have awakened far sooner than me...

Enjoying the terrible show the U.S. - er - Germany, oh whatever, are airing for months now, waiting for the fireworks -er - explosion to occur, so people have the chance to come to their senses...aaaaaah, I feel so funny today 🤭😛

One of my key problems is, that I am reluctant to ask for help. And it is annoying, because the workload is big, but since I KNOW sewing costumes takes long and is frustrating at times and you end up doing far more by hand, than with a maschine, which is even harder...I don't want to ask anyone else

When you sadly can hear through the door, that some of your patients don't wash their hands after using the toilet 🤢🤮

Alice dressed as Grandduchess Anastasia. She is showing her goofy side during a photoshooting. The dress, inspired by Broadway and Takarazuka, is made by hand by Alice

Alice dressed as Belle, sitting next to yellow flowers. The dress is handmade by Alice

Alice dressed as Empress Elisabeth of Austria. The dress is a combination of a cheap wedding gown and many hours of handsewing further fabrics and details to it by Alice

Alice dressed as Princess Anna of Arendelle. The dress is handmade and handembroidered by Alice.

I am eagerly waiting for the new FLASHES APP to launch for Android. Until then:
4 photos to get to know me better 🩷✨

I have the same struggles with Japanese! I try to get better, but barely have the time or energy to really study or practice. Learning new languages as an adult is really hard, so don't be discouraged 🩷✨

Sounds like fear of loss? But you kept everyone safe, so you are not helpless and still in control? Yay? :D

Use simple words and short sentences.

Keep them dumm/ignorant/ misinformed

Keep them hungry/dependent

Give them a good scapegoat/villain

Et voilà: you have a solid dictatorship/faschist regime

It's an easy concept, so even idiots can do it.