Homesickness.

...

fuck alan.

👍

(Trying to stab the thing without hesitation.)

(huh.)
> "can i stab it" <
"can i have it"

(...)

(You squint.)
> "what is that." <
"do i want to know?"

w-

whuh.

i'm fine!!!

(No.)

. . . . .

(you can't see anything)

(it hurts)

(you can't think)

(you--)

(it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts i t hur ts it h u r t s i t h u r t s it hurts it h ur ts i t h u r t s)

(but you're fine)

(you don't react)

(not like you can, anyway)

(it's so funny how he thinks this will do anything!!!)
(how he thinks you'll care!!!)
(you won't.)
(you won't care.)
(this won't change anything.)
(you'll just move on.)
(and if you die, then it'll be like it never happened.)
(your body will be just fine)
(you'll be okay)

(..............)
(it h urts)
(but you ig nore th ep ain)
(it doesnt matt era nymore)
(ahahahaha.)
(hahhahhaahhahahahahha.)
(hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha)
(you cant stop laughing!!)
(it's so funny!!!)

. . .

(Haah!!! You can! Live with that.)

(That's. Fine. as if you haven't gone insane enough.)

(you'll be fine.)

(you've been suffering for-- stars, you forgot)

(w h a t s a li tt l e m o r e)

You'd probably be this way too. Atleast, similar.

(You like to believe you're not selfish, anyway.)

If you really hate it so much, then kill me!!!! Kill me painfully!! Make it slow, even!!! See if I fucking care.

I replaced Siffrin because I wanted what they had. A party.

A "family."

...how do you-

(You flinch. who told him. how does he know? when did he know? did you tell him and forgot that you did? stupid. stupid. siffrin-- mal. stupid mal.)

..........Am I not allowed to feel anger? I'm not selfish. If you went through what I did?

yawn...

(Ignoring him.)

no.

and i don't care.

(Conveniently laying down nearby.)

can you shut up...?

.....

(Oh.)

(....)

(You have similar thoughts.)

chris

same mindset

(Is quite literally homeless)

woaw...

you had a job?

chris

It's okay OMEGA, I honestly kinda feel you.

Take your time, come back when you want to.

......

(You shake your head.)

(No, it's not.)

it's fine.

chris

hi car

.... no, i do not think we have.

(You blankly stare at the other, crossing your arms.)

i'm so cool

(lifting your hat.)

(cat ears.)

cat ears..

......?

(You tilt your head.)

hello there.

?

(blink blink.)