Echo-location

I honestly dunno what to think about gender at this point
At least I'm pretty sure I'm genderfluid at this point cuz no normally-gendered person would switch up this much, if at all

YEAAAAAAA

Honestly?
What even IS gender at this point?
All I know is I wanna look cute :3

I kinda just wanna sleep now
Get the bad thoughts out

God I know I shouldn't open my mouth to say anything but then people say they like hearing me say stuff then I say something and get depressed when it gets backlash or whatever

I hate this I was having a good day FUCK

Dunno what's wrong rn but I need to calm down

What if I just dropped the link to alosis on my main then abandoned it
So anyone who actually WANTS to be moots can follow it
And I could be in a spot that didn't disturb me in any way

Brain is cluttered
No main rn

Need to keep reminding myself that if I feel bored while on bluesky and I feel bored while on the ps4 and nothing looks interesting regardless of how much I look then it's probably not boredom that I'm feeling

Just kinda feel empty ngl

🫂

Yea
Just my brain overreacting and ruining my mood
The usual tbh

This is about levi
Seeing a moot I can remember off the top of my head block me stings a little bit
They didn't block my other 2 accounts, but I don't feel comfortable having someone that blocked me just be on my alt at all
And guess who showed up on my following feed
Not their fault, but still

Damn
Was NOT expecting to see that account on here
Came here expecting to probably get upset at others problems and maybe help but instead just got Slightly upset by my own
That sucks

Tired and bored
Too tired to do anything to cure the boredom
Too bored to stop focusing on my tiredness

Mfw I'm depressed but then feel bad about it bc people have worse lives than me so I shouldn't be complaining

I'm debating if I should take a break from all accounts or just main
Idk if it'll even help al all tho

Maybe I should take another break?
That sounds fitting
Maybe this feeling will leave me if I say "fuck it" and start over
Cuz then it doesn't matter if they remember me or not cuz I won't be around them
Who knows

My brain keeps telling me "they'll all forget you at some point" and "they probably haven't even noticed you enough to forget you in the first place" and it makes me wanna physically manifest my doubts to fucking fistfight them

I've come to a realization
I MIGHT be an attention whore
Which is ok I think bc everytime I ask for attention I'm given it
It still doesn't feel good to ask tho-

God I need sleep rn

My mind went from "No one would remember you if you where gone" and "they would all forget you in a week" to "hehehehe dess is roadkill" in like 2 minutes and I really don't get why

Maybe the reason alosis and moth worked as well as they do is because following 300 people is overwhelming so having a small account you can go to for distancing yourself is kinda peaceful at times

bc echo is kinda just who I am online changing my @ is weird too me
I mean it's everywhere, but I dunno if I like it like that
Maybe it's the rest of it? Like the "faraway" bit is what I don't like? Maybe it should be something different than faraway but still have echo?
I have 0 clue

Damn
I need to make a fucking GameShow out of this at this point

"depression or boredom" would go hard as a game show methinks

Damn these are good

I fucking HOPE so
I'm going crazy trying to find something that will
:3

Fair enough
I just wish something would stick already
I hate going through ideas and worrying about if people will even remember me after them

Yaknow now that I think about it
My life was kinda- I don't wanna say horrid but in hindsight sounds kinds fucked-
Like honestly the fact that I have the problems that I have should have been a surprise to no one
But my siblings turned out fine enough so maybe it is just me
Idk at this point-

So stylefluid theory might actually be right?
Holy shit I might be a genius(I say, as I talk about my OWN LIFE like it's a fucking arg or some shit)