The Neon Warren

I've been having a lot of fun playing with my 2000s-esque style and capturing it, but every now and then i see the PROPAGANDA of a more modern style and messin with other things, and im like UGH!!
let me play with the art of old!
how dare people make beautiful art thats so unique and interesting

Ive been preoccupied playing RE4 this evening bc i wanted to relax and now idk if ill stream NITW ugh
I wanted to yesterday but todays a weird day for me. It does have to do with the art i posted so
im thinking that a stream would bring me more in the present instead of just a distraction? but idk.

Chilling after my first counseling sesh (that didnt rly do much) and playing genshin to win that motherfuckin Flins
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STREAM tonight will probs happen closer to 7pm MST !!
Will only go for a few hours so i can do more genshin 😭 i got 22hours!!!

I’m sorry. I dont know what to do with the thoughts.
Im not doing this on purpose. I’m just alone again. No one will see it. Or make a fuss. Im nobody, just as ive always been. I will fade like i always have
And this is the only thing I know, to make me and my feelings feel real.

It sounds harsh, but I know i dont “need” you. And you dont need me.
But I want you. I want my best friend.
i hope my heart doesnt push you further away and hurt my chances of being friends again.
My heartache will go away.
But losing my friend is a blow i cannot bear. Not again. Not with you.

I flip back and forth all the time.
I know i can survive on my own. I know you will be happy. We’ll be okay.
My heart is only broken because you’re not mine anymore.
But i still do cherish that you’re even here.

And i don’t know if it’ll ever come back. And thats what scares me the most.
All of this to be at square one. To erase me. Forget about me.
It might not be like that forever. And i will wait for that day.
But i know its easier to just let it go than to keep trying. And that hurts.

I had only one hope that you’d still be in my life.. Because thats all I want really.
The friends who stick around the longest are my everything.
I’d treat them all the same.
And just having your light in my life would be everything.
But its gone now. Its dim.

All I can think is that it wasn’t supposed to be this way.
It was all so real. So strong.

I’ll be just fine in the end.
I just want you to be happy. And if that isn’t with me, thats okay. I know that in my mind, and for now, just my heart aches.
But i’d still be okay someday.

Maybe by speaking it out loud, I can find the reason its all gone.
Somebody somewhere will know I’m lost. They’ll know the answer. And I can make sense of it.
But no matter how many times I try, there is no reason I can find or understand. I can tell myself lots of things.
But i’m still lost.

I keep trying to get through the way I feel. I draw it out and make stuff to try and make sense of it. It should be private and things i deal with on my own.
But its hard to be all alone again.
Maybe im trying to cry and shout it all out in hopes that the reason it all fell apart will show itself

I’m sorry, I don’t know what to do with these thoughts anymore

trying to do accounting homework and its taking so fuckin long cuz i have to do the ENTIRE process for a thing just to cover the ONE thing we learned this chapter 🫩 its one question with 7 parts and i opened it like...wtf

I played genshin too long yesterday!!!!!
Til like 5am 😭
Managed to wake up at an okay time but i got shit to get done today so imma do my best to make streamy time!!!
But note that i WILL still stream monday and tuesday if you dont see me pop up today 😔

OH! And the new thingies i wanted to add now that Im a ✨Twitch Affiliate✨arent ready yet!!!
I really wanna set up the points system and give you guys some intractables to put on the stream but i needa figure out that bit too lol

No stream today 😔 I’m just not feeelin it 🥱 and i want to grind some genshin to try and win the banner character before it switches over and I needa do missions for Primos
I mean UNLESS you guyz are fine with a genshin stream break? But ye

Ah—! a coping mechanism!!

Stream prooobs gonna start closer to 8 bc I’ve been distracted by doodling and its already 615!!!!
I needa shower my stinky bunny booty and eat a sweet treat before the angst hits me

More Night in the Woods tonight!! 🍂🍂🍂 Don’t miss it over on Twitch at 7pm Killer 🍁

//Owl House Spoiler

Don't forget to join me over on Twitch soon! Nice chill fall vibes with a pink bunny!
I've been wanting to replay the game for a while and I'd love for others to join in and witness the wonders this game has to offer with its story and art

Hey guess what!! We're finally going back to streaming!
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We're in the throws of fall at last! So we are going to be starting a nice playthrough of one of my FAVORITE fall games, Night in the Woods!
Come sit with me TONIGHT around 7-8pm MST

Here’s some pics from my art sale back at Phoenix Animation Expo in September. My first (sort of) and last sale of this year ✨
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It was super fun and I got to interact with some industry vets and ugh it really motivated me back into thinking about animation again

Here’s some pics from my art sale back at Phoenix Animation Expo in September. My first (sort of) and last sale of this year ✨
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It was super fun and I got to interact with some industry vets and ugh it really motivated me back into thinking about animation again

Still prepping for tomorrows art sale!! Rushing through drawing, printing and cutting the stickers all at home - !
Here's a batch of the Amazing Digital Circus stickers I made

Yoyo check out the new MLP Mane 6 stickers I worked on during my freetime!
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Some slight variants to their canon designs that I thought would be fun to make. I might take some time another day and draw out some more unique ones but I wanted to make sure ppl knew who they were lol!

Just wanna make some things clear for the future for people following me here and other platforms
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Reminder also that I heavily believe in punk ideals. Leftist, anarchist, whatever you call it. Fuck Nazis.
(Which shouldn’t be a controversial statement.)

Ended up not doing as much work as i wanted to today so streamy is cancelled ugh! i was recording a bunch for an upcoming video for my YouTube, since that's content I'm trying to get back into, with some other ideas I've had
Sorriees! When we DO get back to streams i'll probs be gaming for a while

I've been meaning to post some art for a hot minute but uGH i got nothing, at least that i wanna share, i wanna finish my lil things before i dump them and add a couple
PLUS, i've been busy with college nonsense again
BUT just letting ppls here know i WILL be trying to stream this sunday evening ✨

Coping is making your fursonas talk to each other (also mini comic coming soon)