zen 💕

Ive experienced this years ago already but Im still not used to it. Should I be thankful Im faring well or guilty??

It feels surreal that the weather is so good today and people are going back to work normally while some families are suffering and grieving for lives lost and hard earned properties destroyed.

Being away from my fam is making me think negatively rn. I can't go home coz the routes are not yet fixed...i also dont wanna be another person consuming resources back home. Just existing is making me guilty rn.

Another super typhoon is coming again this weekend. Our power is not even back yet. I havent come back to work for 3 days and it's eating mentally. I want my normal days back drowning in work.

Our island was struck by a strong earthquake early October and now this week a devastating typhoon almost wiped some communities. The towns I grew up in suffered a lot. Death tolls are rising. Like shit the epicenter of last month's earthquake had an aftershock after the typhoon 😭

Im really trying to be hopeful rn but the series of tragedies we are going through are really getting to me mentally, my heart hurts for my fellow country men. I feel helpless. How many traumas are we supposed to experience before the year ends. For fuck's sake.

qwq ✨️🌙🫰

Someone gotta stop me from this delusion of making a snail mail club (i really want to 😭) like heck I just wanna pack silly things and send envelopes

I wanna draw yaoi so bad but im like a "coin-operated ride" kind of an artist 😭

カリュクス！！マイカだよ！！！！

I picked up another hobby: Postcrossing! I just sent my first 5 postcards going to Taiwan, China, India, Germany and the Netherlands!

Hope my postcards arrive to their recipients 🥺

Snail mails are super exciting, I wish I knew about this yeaaaars ago.

Im already busy enough with full time job + comms and now I decided to take up my dusty palette and join a local exhibition. I am still inlove with watercolors. Forever my first love ig

thank you everyone who still makes art despite everything

This week's work is now finished. Creating something new is really hard work. This week in particular, I had many different experiences. Right now, I feel like a traveler. I am stepping into an unknown world before my eyes. I can only pray that someday I will find the light I am aiming for ahead.

Im so tired tired tired

Watercolor painting of a croissant sandwhich

Watercolor painting of 2 pieces of croissant on a checkered paper towel

Im back to doing watercolors again my 8 year old White Nights still going strong... I like painting foods rn so that will be my main subject for this medium...

This week was exhausting...i feel like i was running non stop coz of the deadlines 😖 am I gonna be doing projects like this forever???

Knight of Pentacles 🌟 Sefirot Tarot

I have a comm to finish soon but my anxiety today is making it almost impossible to work. How do i stop giving a fck when it manifests in my dreams too?

Why do i still struggle to say no ugh im digging another hole for myself. Me and my stupid people pleaser ass

Viera comms recently :3

#ffxiv #ffxivart #viera #wol

From time to time I look up/back read my chats with clients (sometimes to retrieve infos/jpegs), I had one webtoon author commission me some pieces for their series. I went to reread their webtoon this morning...only to find out they passed away years ago?! 😭 my heart hurts

This is my tiktok:
www.tiktok.com/@amimimeow?_...

Usually upload timelapses there :)

Anyways Ive been obsessed with Epic lately. Personal arts are gonna be very Greek mythology coded in the coming days.

I dont like concerning myself with numbers coz it makes me spiral downwards but I cant help noticing it 😅 and I shamelessly admit, I like the serotonin boost. I hold every comment and nice feedback to my heart. I may reply nonchalantly but trust me, I squeal irl from compliments.

speaker of nonsense
#ffxiv #ffxivart

Add youtube shorts too.

IG: below 200 views and 10 likes at most
Tiktok: 300+ views, 40+ likes and some really cute comments
YT shorts: 1-2k views, 30+ likes

IG is ass but I like looking at my gallery there

I swore to myself to never get into tiktok and I broke that like a month ago. I shouldve gone there instead of IG. I get more attention in the span of weeks compared to my 12 years on IG 😆 it's still not like the viral kind of attention... But I feel seen compared to IG.

I have 1 slot left for tarot comms!
Also need 2 more follows to complete my follow quest~ if u follow me I'll follow back!
Vgen.co/mmeizn

Maintaining social media accs is so exhausting f I'll be on instagram, find/chat me there 😘