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Would You Fall In Love With Me Again - Kavetham would fall in love over and over again, no matter how where or when [ #kavetham #haikaveh #kavehaitham #kavehtham #haikavetham ]

Ao3 Link - archiveofourown.org/works/64383796

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More author's note on the ao3 version of this fic! WYFILWMA brought together so many fandoms together when it released, and it was so #Kavetham / #Haikaveh coded I just had to write a fanfic with them. I miss them sm 🌱🏛️

"Anything."

"Then, Haiyi."

“Yes?”

“Wake up for me.”

Instead of standing, Kaveh now kneels to Alhaitham's level. Two calloused hands cup the other's face, and eyes stare one more back at Alhaitham. "If you love me that much, you'd do anything for me?"

“I promise…” Alhaitham begins, words nearly fumbling. “I promise I’ll never forget this.”

Kaveh snorts, and for a moment Alhaitham forgets where he is. “You better not.”

Why can't you see that I love you? You damn fool..."

Kaveh only laughs, mismatching the feelings waiting to crumble Alhaitham like sand in the desert wind. "I wish I heard that a bit sooner. But now, ah, it's too late now, don't you agree?"

"This is why I need to go, Haiyi." Kaveh insists. He tries to stand, but Alhaitham grips the hem of his shirt. "I'm not worth risking hundreds of lives for."

"You are worth more than gold and prestige to me, worth more than anything anyone can offer me, Kaveh.

Pure unearth feelings tangled around confessions that Alhaitham wished were said in better circumstances, now only spoken in his last chance.

"Neither does this for you." Alhaitham exchanges, hoping it would rile up the other. Just like before. Just banter without an unnamed deadline to their peaceful lives.

But a thrown argument never comes. There was no banter, no teasing, no slammed doors and heavy sighs.

"And you said you were a rational scholar." Another tease hollow by the lack of spite in Kaveh's words. "It doesn't suit you, Haiyi."

Wasn't his plan to save Sumeru already proof of his devotion? Hundreds of citizens were saved except for the one he wanted to be with for the rest of his life. What was the damn point of all of this, all this suffering, when Kaveh...

Why was Kaveh leaving him?

"Then if you had to choose Sumeru or me, who-"

"You. It will always be you." Alhaitham didn't hesitate, honesty taking over his pride long gone. "No nation will ever be home without you in it."

When Alhaitham doesn't respond, Kaveh proposes a question. "Do you think we're roommates in every lifetime?"

"That's not fair." Alhaitham grips the hand that wipes away his tears. "I hope we'd be more in this lifetime."

I don't care how, where, or when. No matter how long it will be, you're mine, Haiyi."

"Then I'll just have to fall in love with you. Over and over again, no matter how many times. I'll let you lean on my shoulder, caress your face, and lean forward like it's the first time. I'll do anything and everything from lifetimes to seconds.

He never understood why something so good could feel so wrong.

"You won't remember me. You may never love me the way you do right here."

Kaveh pulls away to face him, and the glint in his eyes brings Alhaitham nothing but pained confirmation. They never shone that bright before. Kaveh looked at peace.

Alhaitham can feel Kaveh's smile project from his voice, not a trace of mimicked grief. "You will see me again someday. You can wait for me, right?"

"But you won't remember any of this." Alhaitham grips the arms that hug him tight.

"You have to. You're not happy, Haiyi." Calming reassurance with uncertain promises.

"I won't be happy without you." Denial full of sorrow and begging.

But Kaveh was always soft. A core that pulled him away from his defenses and into a warm embrace. In the end, Kaveh was always the stronger one. So open arms were Kaveh's reply to Alhaitham's pleas. Arms that will soon part and leave him empty just like before.

Why 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯?

He was stronger than Kaveh. He could pull him down and stop him from leaving. He could raise his voice to yell and command him to stop. Tighten his grip, glare at his eyes, cry his heart out.

"Pfft, never thought you were the clingy type." Kaveh comments. A failed attempt at a tease. He never fails that. "You should really let go, Haiyi."

"No..." he finds himself saying, his voice sounding like it was within a jar of suffocating air. "I won't let you go." Not again.

It wasn't a client, not an event, just something. 𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 that Alhaitham didn't like. He didn't know why, so his actions spoke louder than his unformed words.

"Alright, I'll be going then," Kaveh announces, but not with the usual sigh or grumbles. "I have to attend something."

He didn't have anyone to meet when evening arrived. Alhaitham would know, with his schedule memorized like the creases of Kaveh's palms.

It was faint, but nothing missed the eyes of the grand scribe.

But in his- no, in 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 home, he was just Alhaitham. Just a man who loved the other who stared at him with fondness so soft, so loving like a farewell.

Alhaitham hated farewells.

Two keys intertwined, resting on top of the table, their coats and capes hung loosely by the door. The afternoon sun was long gone and replaced with a cool evening. But the lamps of their living room glowed blearily, just like how light seemed to surround Kaveh's being.

If not, then regret and guilt. Why did so many people have trouble with this? He never knew up until this very moment.

They were sitting on their divan, in front of their coffee table, in their own living room.

Can something so good feel so wrong?

Alhaitham thought of this once. Only once, because he deemed arguing with such a concept pointless. If something is right and just, it should yield emotions of satisfaction.

“Would You Fall In Love With Me Again” is so Kavetham coded because they indeed would fall in love over and over again despite whatever the circumstances that try to tear them apart. In sickness and in health as they say, perhaps even in death (?)

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