Rejection Sensitive Adulting

I recently saw someone talking about ADHD meds and Autism. Mentioned when your ADHD is controlled your Autistic traits could become more prominent. This speaks volumes to me and explains my retreat from engaging with society. I thought I was just getting old and this was a part of life after 40 lol

I have an existential crisis almost every other night before bed and end up not getting enough sleep when I have to work. I’m sorry to hear about your day. I hope tomorrow is better.

I’ve been rehearsing everything I’m going to say at work tomorrow even though I work from home 😂 I feel you so much on this one.

I retraumatize myself almost daily every time I have an audhd moment. It’s a cycle that never ends.

Cute cat in a red backpack.

Hates going outside, but loves playing in his backpack.

I procrastinate and end up causing myself undo anxiety of wondering if they now hate me or not for waiting last minute to cancel/reschedule. I hate disappointing people, but I still can’t get myself to do it.

Same. I end up waiting until one hour before closing so I don’t have to deal with people in the daylight. It’s already bright as it is inside.

I used to think I was a perfectionist because I lined up all of my office supplies, pens, pencils, calculators, tape, even chapstick and nail files on my work desk in perfect 90 degree angles.

Wishing I had your obsession rn.

I bought a cheap ikea lounge chair sofa, fitted it with some memory foam instead of the cheap inserts, and started sleeping in the living room. It’s been life changing.

😂 me every Sunday. I can’t leave the house on Saturdays anymore because I enjoy my one real day of freedom way too much.

Me then (before diagnosis): dreamt of working in a big office, wearing cute clothes everyday, and socializing with colleagues.

Me now (after shedding my mask): dreaming of a peaceful life as a recluse, a hermit, with lots of cats, and no one judging me for wearing pajamas all day.

That’s what the psyc told me when I was first diagnosed. She asked me if I ever told this to any other doctors. I said to her I didn’t think to because I thought I was the problem. And she apologized that I’ve had to deal with this for so long with no help and that my feelings are validated.

When I’m feeling down, I punish myself with isolation and withhold interacting where I can be perceived as me. I forget that like minded people are on this platform and I always feel better reading peoples similar thoughts. Thank you for confirming this for me :)

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I go to the same pharmacy to pick up the same Rx every month and each time they confer in the back for five minutes to make sure I’m not a day early, I have five id’s to prove it’s me, and that I’m not some sort of criminal enterprise faking an illness for drugs.

What happened to his neck? Asking for a friend.

I read your words and want to be productive except I’m stuck in freeze mode still. Love your motivational poem and will read it again tomorrow.

I hate the questionnaire they give you when going to a new doctor because nobody believes you’re autistic or adhd except your psychiatrist. Yes I have anxiety, depression, and antisocial thoughts. I know I look normal, it’s a mask.

The medical mafia drives me crazy. I tell my pharmacy every month I pick up my adderall I need to have it on time or I’ll lose my job because without it I can’t function in society. I tell them I’m autistic and adhd so I shut down when rejected. They continue to treat me like a crack head each time.

I’ve been gone for a while stuck in autistic freeze mode where I retreat from society. Paralyzed with fear and constant thoughts of failure because of my adhd. Hoping to slowly make my way back to living in the real world and out of my fantasy world of justice and fairness.

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The power of the web bringing aliens/people of all kinds together! Glad you did too 🙃

Currently listening to binaural beats focus sessions. Hoping to trick my mind into working on a Friday. Jealous of all the normal people I work with succeeding but even that is enough motivation to work harder. Because I am always feeling like the underdog. Repeat cycle on Monday.

Being an ADHD empath I identified with Counselor Deanna Troy from the Next Generation. I used to think I had to be an alien, because where were all the weird people (not at my school I guess) and then I grew up and found a whole community of neurodivergent aliens of all kinds.

Fridays are the best and worst days for ADHD. In the morning you get up with this sudden urge to complete everything by noon because that’s when the weekend starts for you. But you’re paralyzed from the fear of not finishing until afternoon and end up working until 7. #executivedysfunction #TGIF

Majestic mackerel tabby cat with green eyes sitting in the sun.

I’ve been staring at my cat for 3 days straight whilst suffering from debilitating anxiety from my lifelong procrastination. In my next life I hope to be a cute cat.

I was a high performing straight A student & gifted, played 2 sports, w/ so much potential, but took 7 yrs to finish college, divorced, didnt know how to save $ impulse buys into debt, quit good jobs out of boredom, now a late diagnosed adult, finally on meds regularly & on my way to $$$ freedom.