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I arrived 3 minutes late for something yesterday bc Google maps got new lost, and I almost had a full on panic attack over being late.

This is one of the things I'm currently working on in therapy.

That explains my sweet tooth... 😅

Maybe the rise in autism is partially due to the fact that we aren't mass sterilizing disabled people like we used to and all of us autistic people are finally gettin' busy and having autistic offspring. 🤷‍♀️

The poem begins, "First, they came for the Jews," but that's not technically true. First, they came for the disabled, and murdered them if they were deemed too disabled to be "useful".

I remember being relatively young and playing in the gutter after a hard rain. We used the dirt to create dams and studied how the water flow changed when we altered the dams. We spent hours out there playing. And learning.

When I lie about trivial things, it is often bc a little inaccuracy saves a ton of explanation. If my kid needs a mental health day, I tell the school they have a headache. It's close enough, and saves me (and them) from having to explain what's actually wrong.

Oh, yeah. They're no better. GOP just happened to be the ones I was more pissed off at in that moment.

GOP: We're the party of family values and freedom!

Also GOP: Fuck kids. They don't need to eat or have Healthcare or the ability to make their own decisions about themselves.

Source: every fucking thing happening in the US right now.

I have enough dudes I don't know following me, and enough internet experience to know what that means, that I feel the need to clarify:

I am happily married.

Also, you're ugly. 🤷‍♀️

(IOW: I don't find bots attractive)

I'm so fucking tired of this world sometimes. I've been fighting, but today, I'm resting. I'll be back to the fight in a day or two. But for today, I'm gonna not.

Imagine hating me and I’m just at home fighting with my own immune system

My autism needs routine. Requires it to function.

My adhd needs spontaneity. Requires it to function.

My chronic illness just says, "Haha. No." to both.

I just really like and care about people and show it openly. And I'm curious about people. But I also have a brain that remembers people and what they're good at. Put those things together, and the network just sorta happens. Lol

If someone asks how I am, I tell them the truth. And as an #actuallyautistic person with #chronicpain, the truth is rarely pleasant. A sales person once made the mistake of asking and got the reply, "In a lot of fucking pain and honestly, at the end of my rope. You?" They stammered and backed away.

As a #disabled person, I sometimes get in my feels about not having anything to offer, now that I'm stuck at home so much.

And then we'll start a conversation about #mutualaid and I realize I've been stuffing my head full of knowledge and building networks this whole time.

Today is International Holocaust Remembrance Day. Today, we remember the Jews, LGBTQIA+, Roma, disabled, BIPOC, Polish, Russian, Jehovah's Witnesses, and too many other minority groups or allies who lost their lives in Hitler's genocide. Moreso, it's important to remember the global lesson imparted on us through such an event of pure evil and violence: NEVER AGAIN. Many ethnic and racial groups, disabled and LGBTQIA+ folk, and other minorities are victims of ethnic cleansing and genocide RIGHT NOW. We're all living in different stages of the cold, heartless truth of the 1930s and 1940s. The difference is that while we can't change what happened in the past, we CAN and MUST change the outcome of the current ongoing and worsening atrocities being committed by white supremacists. It's imperative now more than ever to make a stand for our individual and collective futures. NEVER AGAIN, but MEAN IT. NEVER AGAIN, not for ANYONE.

I'm trans nonbinary and pan.
I'm Autistic and ADHD.
I have mental illnesses and physical disabilities.
I'm a pagan witch.
I'm Cajun Creole.

The people I cherish are also minorities.

So, yeah, it's personal.
And no, I won't fucking stop.

#endgenocide #neveragain

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The first person to be diagnosed as autistic passed away last year at 89 years old. Please remember this if you find yourself being hypercritical of “all these people being diagnosed as autistic now”. The first documented clinical autism diagnosis was made less than 100 years ago.

Wait. Of course. I worked my ass off to learn pretty penmanship as a fuck you to a teacher who told me I'd never be a teacher with handwriting like mine. That doesn't mean I have good fine motor skills. #actuallyautistic

Me, to my back: "No. Knock it off. We are not going to seize up because I stretched. Stop being a drama queen. Thank you. That's better." 😅 #chronicpain

It's been a hot minute since I played with photo editing, but I do remember layers being both the best thing ever and the bane of my existence. 😅

Not a digital artist, so several didn't apply, but

It's entirely too cold and my body hurts entirely too much for the events of this week. Blech. #chronicpain #chronicillness

My youngest just bought me this heated blanket that's soft and fluffy like a teddy bear. It's my current favorite sensory.
Other comforts: over-ear headphones playing alt rock; candles; coffee just the way I like it; my cat purring on me; petrichor; the vibration of deep bass notes in my chest.

You, autistic person, sometimes self-care is turning off the hyperfixation so you eat

The doctor stayed my results appointment by saying, "You're a very smart lady." I said, "I know. But that's not why we did the testing." 😅

Yeah. I'm definitely autistic.

Thank you for learning from the community. It shows you truly are in the right place for the right reasons.

There is nothing wrong with looking into it and deciding for yourself if you're autistic. Getting a formal diagnosis isn't really necessary. It doesn't particularly help with anything, and can even be harmful for some. But if you want to know, there are some great self-evaluations online. ❤️

I asked for pillows and blankets for Christmas. Family did not disappoint. ❤️