Michelle

I didn’t realize.

Oh, dear me

today is not the day bro.

The bathroom somehow manages to calm my panic attacks.

Nothing more jarring than randomly coming across the first online friend I ever made.

If I started posting my lewd FFXIV pics I'd alienate all my followers or maybe they'd be happily surprised.

Usually older music. 70’s or 80’s. Hall and Oates, Tears for Fears, Phil Collins… whatever that genre was. As the day progresses it transitions into heavier music like hard rock or metal.

I’m so tired of it all. I know I’m going to have to be the one to step up on top of everything else.

Music is the only thing that can get me stabilized in the morning.

Most of my face was numb, but the only part that mattered was not… very cool thank you.

The dentist who did a good job before, did a bad job last night. I was numbed everywhere except for the nerve of my tooth. Meaning when he pulled it out, I felt every part of it. He stopped to keep trying to numb it, but eventually I just had to sit there and accept it getting pulled without numbing

Painkiller doesn’t do shit anymore

It’s always me who has to prove myself.

In order to function in my current circumstances, I feel I must shut down many parts of myself that would otherwise make me feel like myself. So very bizarre… I forgot what it felt like.

What a strange feeling.

I remember often why I spent so much time keeping to myself. But I am an optimistic little thing. I can’t exactly handle the isolation I think. It’s been nice to open up again.

I suppose it may be wrong of me to take comfort in it.

This old arlefuri hand drawing... I should remake this later in uni

Time spent angry at a lesbian is time wasted not kissing her.

It’s already Wednesday but it feels like Monday.

It’s silly to try so hard, when it could all be fine without such effort.

I tend to get nervous or anxious because people have a difficult time accepting who I am, and then I slowly stop worrying so much. I’d rather not worry at all, but at least it isn’t permanent.

Yeah understandable then.

Looks like a fun place to be.

why am I not surprised?

Fighting regression is one of the hardest things I have to do.

One handful of breast, and the crook of her neck please, waiter. With a side of kissing her too.

I loved this outfit so much I had to take a picture.
Also I changed to bunny ears again and I think for good.

Dragoon Acquired

It was very surreal in the first half, lots of bright colors and strange imagery. Felt like forever. And then, all of a sudden, I was leaning on a car looking over a field. In a suit. For some reason my brain knew I was part of some “mob” and I was disposing a body, after getting off the phone.