Peter Parker

I dont like fisher because does it look like I got bait?

They are everywhere bengay

I just it to be known that I am tired of people getting so bent out of place over my presence. Why do me just being around bother you or cause you to want to move weird

Adult clients aren’t for me @ all lol

Like I can understand saying things in the moment but double downing after having a day to calm down is some wild shit, like you really meant that & that can’t stand

It takes a lot for me to block. I don’t block lightly. I try everything to find some resolution but speaking on my mental health in any capacity during a tense moment isn’t it. Same way I wouldn’t bring up a woman being on her period or postpartum.

Shit crazy because she talked about a nail dust collector & that’s what I got & couldn’t even celebrate her having it

All I hope I’m the last person that gets treated like that. If this leads to change & healing then I guess my pain was worth it

I’m more disappointed than angry. I can’t wrap my head around someone changing so quickly & then to double down? It doesn’t compute & I swear im trying to understand

Grief is dumb.

It’s wild how you can feel disgusted by the same person you saw love in

Meanwhile their actions and behaviors show they clearly do not care about you. These are also the “I’m a good guy/person” types and it’s all performative…. Nothing good about a liar, user, cheater, selfish n narcissistic person.

Self awareness and accountability are sexy 🫦

Dating & love is crazy. One day someone can decide they want nothing to do with you & there isn’t anything you can do

Tame impala & hurry up tomorrow has been keeping me up

boycotts aren’t supposed to be convenient…

Mhm

But i think I might of figured something out that I can use next week. Hopefully it works because it will lighten my evenings significantly

So im consistently on the go & I want to be able to do things besides work & internship. I have to be around people & socialize but I feel exhausted even thinking about going on dates, hanging out or doing anything that isnt me in my bed doing nothing.

It feels like my rest time isn’t rest but it’s another task I got to complete. Because of how much “self care” they talk about, my self care is turning into more work than actually self caring. When I workout, I cant take my time because I dont have time. Same for cooking my lunch

This is why I need a remote job. I need flexibility because I have lil room for error. I dont feel relaxed in an office. I do feel relaxed @ my home doing work. By the time I get off work I’m exhausted mentally & emotionally to go listen to substance abuse stories for hour & 30. Shit is taxing

I’m grateful for the opportunity but I hate the feeling of being overwhelmed. I can’t sacrifice food, I need to eat. I can’t sacrifice my internship because this is my purpose, I can’t sacrifice working out because that helps me keep my head on straight & I can’t sacrifice rest because I’m human

Working 40 hours a week, then add 4.5 hours of internship a week (which will turn into 8 coming March) while also having a hour & 30 min zoom meeting @ 9 pm every monday. I drive 25-30 min to my internship & back. Plus I cook my food which takes 30-45 minutes. When do I have time to workout? Rest?

The 1 thing about sacrifice is trying to pick what should you sacrifice. I’m at a point in my life that I can’t sacrifice anything to lessen my load

& it keeps winning

Love that for you