𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒈𝒈 𝙴𝙽.

i learned from my mistakes.
but still, i'm feel so blamed for this...

ty H2.
but this is what i deserve.
i made mistakes, and now comes the consequences...

i can't stop thinking about her.
i can't stop thinking how i hurt her.
i can't stop thinking about my life with her.
i can't stop thinking.
i can't stop thinking.
i can't stop thinking.

i can't stop thinking about to kill myself.

i can't even cry anymore.

suicide thoughts comes again to haunts me...
fuck it.

i miss you so much...
i should have treated you better.

keep smiling and everything will be ok.

I'm not ready to enter adulthood...

just 2/3 more month...

i'll never fall in love with someone the same way that i fell in love with you.

...
i just don't wanna more to live.

i'm sorry...

i'll be okay. don't care 'bout me

i'll be okay.
i'll be okay.
i'll be okay.
i'll be okay.
i'll be okay.
i'll be okay.

recently i've been going through some existential crises, and it's become being more frequently every night...

i'm really not okay. i just wanna... idk... maybe some peace... of everything...

why i'm still alive? why?

why my life is this hell...?

why i'm trying to be happy?

i'm tired of being tired...
idk if this makes sense, but yeah...
i'm really tired of all this bullshit, and stuffs.
i don't even have motivation to get up of my bed, knowing the cycle of the day are gonna repeat... again, again, again... and again.

And here we are again...

"[...]
I'd move on.
And probably forget about you."

- Jax.

the rain doesn't feel the same.

well... my discord username is on everywhere... if you want to keep contact, just add me there.

maybe in this profile, i'll just repost some post of myself from the main account...
i really have some affection with the bsky and some people that i friended here.

is it worth end with everything like that?
...
i'm sorry, but ig my time in here has ended.
maybe i can come back... sometime...
idk.
thx for everyone here.
i love you all.

bye.

that takes me one step closer to the edge, and i'm about to break.

(yeah that's a linkin park reference, but... idk.)

well...
cya.

why did i make a profile to vent? (in english)
- here my posts range are smaller to the main
- i guess here there are more friends than strangers (all who follows this account i consider my friend)
- i feel more confortable to speak in another language for themes like this
:)

well, at least...
i'm trying to move on...
:)

ʸᵒᵘ ˢʰᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵈᵒ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵃᵐᵉ

i want vent so bad here, but im afraid
fuck

why are breakups so complicated?

i only back to bsky just to vent out.
bye.

i'm such a hipocrate.
i really hate me.

fuck man.
i really don't know, what to say, but, really...
just stop with this, it's the same thing, again, and again, and again...
stop jumping to conclusions, you really know that's not true.

i know i might being so much hipocrate now, but..
just stop overthinking, really.

im tired of this shit.

i'm becoming what i criticized most