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I think I wanna do it - and i understand it from a sound design and performance perspective - I have no idea how to start on the "actually getting work" side

I know people are very sensitive about the use of the word “genocide” but the attempts to medically eliminate trans children is very clearly meets the standard because they are trying to eliminate a population and also they know some of those kids are going to kill themselves

Yes, they are progestin-based, so I'll be risking the depressive episodes again. And it might take me a year to figure out they are causing them, as the depression has a delayed effect.

Also I cannot sleep/live without 200mg progesterone - half oral and half anal. Sometimes both oral if I CBF.

our free list is 5 years long, otherwise I gotta pay 20-30, or risk going to thailand, where multiple friends have had theirs botched

I needed to hear this. I was more worried about surviving long enough to get GRS without getting a stroke or going bald, hairy and ugly.

I'd be fine if I could use cypro - but it literally is unsafe for me to take. I have been on HRT for 10 years as of december this year, and cypro routinely sent me to psych ward without me realising it was the cause due to doctors not know what they are doing.

Off injections I am on Bica - 50-75mg a day. T is not only high, but still works. Spiro I can't as I have POTS. Cypro causes PMDD-like depression as I seem sensitive to progestins, ruling other several other blockers. I either take estrogen via pill (3 progynova 2mg) or gel (3 or so squeezes).

Oh fuck, this is SHGB even taking lots of magnesium, Zinc and nettle tea...

Is Boron safe?

However, I'll chat with my Endo, as I think you are pinpointing me in the right direction! ty!!!

Finally, I'll likely lose my GP - who is the only trans GP nearby. I can't drive either.

And I live in rural victoria - DIY isn't very accessible and again, I am terrified of a stroke. And I genuinely don't know if its my OCD or the risk is real, but given my blood pressure spikes from LC I dunno if I am willing to take the chance.

Also my T isn't remotely suppressed either.

Oh its the SHBG? It is routinely absurdly high. I am still told to get the dose lowered for stroke risk. I don't know what to do and my GP and Endo - the latter who is harm minimisation - was terrified of my levels last time I got them checked.

Is there anything that can *safely* lower it?

The NHS has now stopped all medication - puberty blockers and hormones - for trans minors. For most, unless they get drugs from other sources, this means a lifetime, in an increasingly violent and transphobic society, unable to pass. Under Wes Streeting NHS policy is harm and death for trans people.

700-800 I have zero T suppression, and get those levels from pills or gel alone.

oh and WE CANNOT TEST FOR ESTRONE IN AUSTRALIA. WE CAN ONLY TEST ALL ESTROGENS AS AN AGGREGATE.

and IF I HAVE A STROKE - IF I SURVIVE I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO FINISH MY TRANSITION as I WILL BE DENIED ALL REQUESTS FOR SURGERY. THIS IS LIFE AND DEATH.

Please don't recommend Will Powers - I am australian. Unless he is willing to take an australian patient and even then no idea how that is even possible.

hey everybody, I need help finding a Dr who can help. It's going to be a while before I can get a consult for GRS (I can't wait, the risk is too high due to below) which I'll likely GFM. My life is at risk, as well as further disablement. Add OCD, and its a nightmare. For reference, I live is Aus.

Currently off injections as my trough levels were 2000+, due to stroke risk... but I felt better? I am currently feeling the worst crash in my life and progynova, gel or bica are not helping. My armpits are just ulcer farms from HS, which is triggered by androgens.

Like... if I have to detransition, I am killing myself. Same if I have a stroke, as them I am not allowed to get bottom surgery.

And as you can see, my OCD is having a terrible time with this.

Like I feel like the WPATH levels do not apply to me, I absorb more E and need more E to feel results. However... detransitioning is not an option as my HS quickly progresses and it is deeply painful and gross and is triggered by androgens. Cypro/GnRH causes depression, Spiro worsens POTS.

Drs/endos have no idea and keep swapping me between the same few people, trying the same methods. Injectables DID HELP (energy, T suppression and HS goes away) but I was told I was at a very high stroke risk given my e levels were 2000-4000. I am terrified and not doing well.

AFAIK I am XY. But I am really, profoundly worried about picking between a stroke risk and detransitioning. I am not able to get bottom surgery any time soon. Bica (75 a day) only barely suppresses the effects of T. My body is not responding to HRT normally at all and it could kill me.

Has anybody heard of what conditions could cause really high estrogen absoprtion - only for that high estrogen to not really do much so you need more? Like - I feel I need what Dr's call "dangerous" (over 1500) E levels to function. Below that I break out with Hidradenitis suppurativa and fatigue.

theories of mass delusion are always theories of feminine delusion. they're structurally parasitic on notions of hysteria, of feminine passivity and impressionability, even when applied to groups of men. the foundations of mass psychology and crowd behavior rest explicitly on the comparison.

i am already doing that. but i shall continue to do so

i already scream in a lot of my songs (ringtail possums REALLY scream)

should I do ASMR

can ppl stop dickriding this guy until he commits to taxpayer funding for dick removal

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