shuck

welp . I'm shuck on The Other Place(tm) too

love having my family politically aligned its very good

asked my dad last night if he felt like we(USA lol) were moving towards/in an oligarchy with the giga rich & he just. "it has been since the 80s"
yeah checks out, trickle down economics from Hell

I need to start doing studies again bc my skills anatomically are absolutely fuckin rotten & I need to do better k thanks

n takes their word for it, not stopping to question anything

it's what sent him down an alt right pipeline 💀

but he doesn't do any research beyond a yt video for some God forsaken reason & it's gonna get him killed or something bc sassafras is extremely carcinogenic & literally illegal to use in food products

it's just a little frustrating how gullible he is & how he readily accepts & trusts youtubers

thinking about how 📻 got a hyper fixation on making soda & was gonna follow some YouTubers diy vintage/ old timey soda guide (for beginners)(it was root beer)
n bought sassafras & other stuff to make it, never got around to it

thinking abt the fact that me & 📻 hang out & spend so much time together we get nothing done at home lmao
very good, very healing
feel connected more now than ever

at least yesterday was the planned date, I haven't gotten an update yet

last year they had given him roughly 5 years left to live (ideally) but I just can't shake the feeling that he isn't going to make it to the end of the year

he just. deteriorated so severely so quickly

anyway, grandpa confirmed that he can't farm anymore, so much so that he can't even go out to the barn to feed the cats.

he also said that he's done with traveling, it's just too hard now since he can't really walk anymore

he was for the hospital/ rehab the last 3 weeks & got out yesterday?

sorry I just like . don't post anymore, I miss vent a lot & nothing is the same

my partner got paid on the 20th & his first day off was crisis eve n every store closed early, it was so hard trying to get good Christmas gifts & in the end I got gifts for my families pets bc that's easiest n not as specific
but it was just. beyond stressful ok

merry crisis ig
we spent it at the hospitals rehab center and then went to my mom's after she pulled a double
we spent most of the day driving, bc the hospital was an hr drive north & my mom was over an he drive south
at least I got to see everyone minus my dad bc he's in another country rn

it just doesn't feel the same anymore

ever since vent shut down I just haven't had any drove to write or post anything
I'm trying to some on huddle just bc the character limit is significantly more than here or spoony
but it still feels. lonely. venting is not the target demographic & I can't find other venters like before

I need it to be Not 27° degrees outside thanks

I didn't realize it finally came out for Android 🐎 but I understand the feeling & its why I don't post much either

I GOT THE FOREVER YOUNG IM WINNING SO BIG im so excited abt this i need to share it with y'all
its taken 10 DAYS to get this, but like semi grind semi casual playing ok

it's so silly and fun and I'm totally not distressed about this nooo

I love not being able to sleep bc of what happened yesterday morning
& being scared my indoor cats teleported outside to die

or that the raccoons going to somehow open the window to kill them too

& being scared the chickens are gonna be attacked again even tho they were rehomed an hours drive away

it was so preventable. it's literally 2 & a half hours of work to afford a $100 coop for him, it's fucking nothing & STILL
yhhghh

I think the evaluation went well?
It was a lot of standard questions & I was a bit distracted thinking about the 2 chickens in the car

I got my sister to take the chickens btw
I'm still going over to my dad's & chewing him out

forgot to update, but we found the 3rd chicken, she was safe

it just attacked another chicken, but we managed to save her
we can't find the 3rd chicken and we suspect she mightve been first to die ;;

cw animal death

a raccoon just killed my chicken
by the time I got dressed to rush outside she had already been gutted by it

today is the day, Im going in for my psych evaluation to see if I qualify for disability

Im so nervous I wont be, but I've been hospitalized + in intensive outpatient for my mental Illinois within this year🧍‍♂️

its bad & its hard not to down play when shits been so bad for so long it became normal

i should prolly clarify that he had gotten home at 2:30 IN THE MORNING and got called in at 6 fuckin AM
he gets off work in 15 minutes but i . am still stressed . dude

its just so dangerous ok, esp when he isnt even getting pay differential for the drive bc hes 28 miles out from the closest store instead of 30. like fuck you man. its close enough
the store hes at now is 46 miles from home . dude

im so stressed over it bc girl does 14 hr days, sleeps for 2 hrs then has to go back to the same place, driving an hour in the rain while exhausted
he still isnt even home yet, they told him to do a DOUBLE he got to work at 6am & is now getting off at 11pm, and still again has an hr drive home

📻took a new/old job, (got rehired at the company he was at before moving to the farm( & its already trashy like before 💀
he got put on flex 3rd day there & then got called in for a morning shift at 6am. he got home at 2:30. PLUS we're not an hour out from the closest job site