Thanatos || Purgatory's Guadian

Resident Evil: Requiem.
So far, I like it. The horror aspect is back, both gameplays are interesting. The old and new RE are well mixed together.

Leon tho 👌

I tried explaining how I feel to my father, just to be unable to properly explain and not feel better, nor worse. How my friend described it was on point, if only I could explain better to you all, to make it easier.

I can be one of your demons that you will not get rid of.

I started working out, participated in the push-ups challenge of this month. Wanna keep going, so it can help the mind to appreciate what I can of myself. It's difficult, I feel like giving up each time, but at least I'm trying. If this can be a bit of positivity, I'm trying.

Just to clarify, I am not in depression, I am not suicidal either. I was diagnosed with BPD, and feel emotions 10x times the norms. If this can help understand the constant state of mind.

But anyway, that's just a constant state of mine. The reason of my old nickname, cause I always felt and still do, like I'm floating into the void at every fucking moment of my life.

Thank you.

so heavy. Each time I wanna talk of my struggles, I stop myself, because there is always someone that has it worse, mine is nothing compared to the state of the world. I used to be close to some people, now it feels so distant and reaching out is impossible. What can I say anyway? Nothing good.

I'm tired, I'm exhausted. I feel awkward and never in a safe space. It's not that I feel left out, is that my brain is in a constant fight. I bought games I saw friends play with hope to play with them, which I ended up playing solo. I used to be a fighter, still am at times, but everything feels

enjoy the time I had with others. Now I feel empty, wondering what to do. I want to connect with people, but have no idea how. When I write, I feel it's not good enough and often isn't answered. When I share what I made; art for example, I feel insecure and eventually shut down.

not good enough, so I let others talk instead. I don't know what I want to do anymore, my only rock is my husband and my cats. I just changed job and it is already draining me for how long I am away from home every days. I don't feel like I have a passion anymore. I used to create, to have fun,

Being unable to speak by fear of speaking too much. Unable to talk about what I like by fear I'll annoy others with it. Never knowing what to talk about either, unable to stay in touch but always there to listen to others. I barely speak cause I feel like an annoyance or that what I like is

Realizing how I feel all the time is possibly a trait of my diagnosis. All of that because a friend of mine, heavily struggling made a whole post about how he feels inside, and learning he has the same diagnosis.

It explain but it fucking sucks, cause it is a feeling that is seriously maddening.

I will be sharing something personal, feel free to ignore it. If you read it well, I'm sorry, this has been going for so long.

Personal Struggles.

Don't try to save Viktor, he is right where he wants to be!
#jaycetalis #viktorarcane #jayvik

Hades 2 and Resident evil is a weird fixation to have at the same time.

That just means your asexual and it is totally okay and valid! Relationship shouldn't be around sex. <3

Thank you very much! 💜

And can you be less expressive too??

Watching the first animated RE movie after so long and...
Goodness, Leon can you be stiffer on how you move and stand???

Thank you for this opportunity!

I'm V, I mostly draw ocs and am currently learning about methods of coloring.

It's an outfit I actually really like!

someone asked me what my sketching process was like so i did a very quick 15 min doodle
#REBHFun #ResidentEvil #ResidenteEvil2 #LeonKennedy #sketch

Realized I was dressed up very similar to Chris Redfield of RE8 today.

Day 8 of the push up challenge for mental health.
I heavily suffer today.

Yo what?

A very interesting way to do it!

Aaah thanks! 🥰

Do it 😈

Just some doodles of my boy in his Resident Evil era.
#sketch #art #oc

Definitely

I'm... Actually really tired of feeling like an outcast and doing things alone.