Grae

You know, I think there was probably a better name for this #geocache they could have chosen. Ah well, probably just me.

Another #geocaching highlight, though I didn't quite give this one a favorite point. Still fun.

...I know that I crave power, but I know that power brings out the worst in me. I want somewhere to belong, but my desire for power drowns that out, and if I do have power, I abuse it. I ruin the trust I spend months building in mere seconds. I know the problem's all me, and I hate that. I hate it.

...despite the fact that I've had many. Either someone else fills in the blanks, the blanks that my silence has failed to fill, or it's all swept under the rug like it's ok. It's not. It's not ok. It was never ok, it will never be ok. I have systematically failed as a person and I know that...

...relationship with this person. I've never called them a friend, because I've been afraid that I'd do this, and a true friend would never leak personal info without consent. I wish I could give a valid reason why, but I haven't done that for years. I haven't once owned up to my own failings...

I'm pretty sure I'm a horrible person. How do I know this? I betrayed someone's trust, and very nearly spilled some sensitive personal information, all because I took something as simple as a videogame way too seriously. Do I know it's wrong? Yes. I feel awful that I got so close to ruining my...

These days, other people are what matters, and while I do care about myself, I know I lack a future. Maybe leaving the US would help with that, but even then I'm not sure. Nobody's gonna see this, but y'know what? I'm fine with that.

Now, I get there are people more at risk, namely trans people and various minorities. I also know that I'm not likely to get approved due to my heart condition. At this point, the best I can do is get my documents up to date, though I don't know if it's even worth caring about myself anymore.

I've been thinking for a while now that living near DC is becoming increasingly difficult. Don't get me wrong—I love the DC area; I've lived here my whole life. But with Big Orange knocking around less than an hour away, I'm questioning the rationale of sticking around nowadays, even in the US.

I didn't think I had racked up this long of a streak while caching, yet here we are.

Found in Florida, when I was visiting in December 2024

Something tells me this account is not going to be very active.