Spicy Smol Serval

Not a fucking person wished for your downfall. Quite the fucking opposite actually. I'm happy you finally have people who give you the time you deserve. I couldn't, and we became toxic for each other.

Get out there and thrive.

I don't know how to be social

Crushes are weird but I'm here for it 🥴

Just as I finally get you out of my head, you show back up on here by distant mutuals, and my mind spirals. Why am I not over this yet, I feel pathetic.

I'm convinced the potluck broke me. I haven't been the same since, and I'm gonna ask my therapist today if she thinks it could also be that, or if I'm just projecting something else.

I just can't think of anything else that took the wind out of my sails faster.

How do I tell a friend their partner is toxic as fuck

Crushes are weird but I'm here for it 🥴

How do I tell a friend their partner is toxic as fuck

When you fuck with one of my best friends, ruin their relationship all to say you can be enviable- you really are still just a kid. I hope they realize how toxic you are soon.

Not a drop about you is enviable, don't make me fucking laugh.

I miss you

A more questionably uplifting vent: I'm feeling the spark, and it might be on the worst person at the worst time- not that they're a bad person, obviously, but I know it's someone that won't go anywhere with and all it's gonna do is make me sad on and off until my brain finally lets it go. Shrug.

I'm replaceable. I don't have an income and I'll never hold a career. I can't plan amazing things. I can't even buy birthday gifts 95% of the time.. I'm just useless and am only alive right now because of the kindness of my partners.

Just as I finally get you out of my head, you show back up on here by distant mutuals, and my mind spirals. Why am I not over this yet, I feel pathetic.

I'm boring as fuck how do people like me. I play video games, listen to music, watch baseball and bitch about being sick, all while being low energy most times and barely saying anything. What a fucking catch huh?

night time emotions jumpscare because you forgot to unsub from your ex's yt channel fuck me

I've removed most things Ween from everything. I can't listen to it anymore. It all still hurts too much. I think now that I've had downtime since then, it's actually had a chance to sink in. Months later. Fucking emotions are stupid.

distance is so much worse than i thought

I'm not a good person

I have nothing bad to say about the other group other than my heart is just broken.

Not them, someone else. He knows who he is.

Something about knowing you're out there rooting for my demise, still, has had me fucked up for the last week. I made my share of mistakes, I'm sorry you can't accept yours. This cataclysmic meltdown you've had only justifies me leaving.

lmao.. why does it still hurt? I'm so happy with things as they are, but that stupid yearning won't go away. Maybe that's okay and it's just actually good feelings I'm not used to yet.. but it's the growth, or recovery, or whatever's happening.

I got this.. healing isn't instant.

Not the time for a dysthymic swing. Please go away. I want to be able to feel good things this week please.

I've never wished ill on you once you stupid son of a bitch, yet all you can do is obsess over me and my family and find moments you think is cute to interject. Get. Out. Of. Our. Lives. Leave us the FUCK alone.

Pirate all retro video games. Illegally download whatever retro game you want to play, use flash carts, burn discs, mod your consoles, install emulators, keep hard drives filled with ROMs, share files with friends and family.

Crawl back up your mother's ass.

I don't think I can forgive you. I feel betrayed. I have gnarly trust issues to begin with.. so to be told it wasn't as it felt tore me apart.

I'm sorry.

I wanna scream so fucking much, but I also just want to forget it all.