🔞 Dude 🔞

My dumbass posting this after an all-nighter not realizing I misspelled "man" lmao

BlindJoy / OC x Canon
Blinded man × Joyless man

Joytruder / Oc x Canon
Pale Man x Joyless Maan (OC)

No, no they're fine
I just
Didn't expect for both to be purple

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Oh yeah woo yeah oh yeah Calhouning it rn
#nsfw #ocxcanon

Max is Ares' first sexual experience with any man (and bottoming)... my condolences /j

At 20, Ares was a strict top and in denial about his attraction to men -> Issues regarding his identity and wanting to be seen as more of a man for exclusively dating women.

Alas, polycule w 2 other guys

I still can't believe how good this turned out, dude...

Update it keeps getting worseee

My head huuuurts what's wrong with meee

All of that for nothing.
It got worse during the years 2020 to 2022/2023...

Severe brain fogs and unstable moodswings, debilitating fear and paranoia. And then I took the decision to get off the meds because being unable to draw was making me miserable.
Roughest period of my life.

Tighter lines, my understanding of depth went out the window.
Shading became way simpler.
Understanding of anatomy and color theory went out of wack too.

15 y/o me wasn't perfect at it but I had some talent.

The meds weren't even working either!!! I was still having hallucinations!!!

Before and after taking those damned pills btw.

Almost a year apart too.
2018 -> 2019
15yo -> 16 yo (when I got diagnosed & medicated)

When my psychiatrist made me ping pong from one type of antipsychotic to the next because none of them were working, and that caused my only good skill (art) to take a nosedive. I'll never forget just how badly my art deteriorated.

I wonder what my art could've looked like if I never got on those.

Something Something just woke up mad ass hell at psychiatrists specifically

Proud of you
// coping hard rn

Personally, I kept telling my friends how happy I was to talk with you and kept calling you one of my favorite artists as well. You're liked, and you're an awesome person! I struggle to handle longer conversations with people, but I want to reach out more often. If you ever want to talk, I'm here!🫂

It only Twitter wasn't so ass

I like the idea of a thought void here too, but the lack of privacy gets to me a lil

Dude I'm cookin'

Nakey OCs <3

Your love (deja vu) makes me want to draw so many things with Jack and Maxwell but this specific verse makes me weak ohhhmygod

Maxwell also wears no underwear under his jumpsuit during his time awaiting trial, which is also an interest of mine.

Murderous doctor too...
I think I just created my ideal man and km just now realizing...

If only he had a healthy attachment style, lmao!

Maxwell's design is a combination of my favorite tropes with this. Though I realized it later. Maybe he awoke that within me who knows.

I made his corset do *that* because he's usually self absorbed and overly confident. Reflection on character via design.

But now I just go "damn!" When I see him

My OC designs are so pretty to me because of the sensual appeal.
My personal "ace"-gaze, where a character looks hotter to me when they're dressed, and wearing specific garments makes it a plus.

I find underwear hotter than nakedness.
Tight gloves or suits.
Pretty sequin dresses and fur boas.

Hot

Thinking about how Pugnalare wears a strap for aesthetic purposes.
He just thinks it looks cool, but also, idk
Think about the possibilities of casual, risky semi-public sex with his partner 💭
It gets me it does.

These Maxwell faces gets me,, hmm...

I started s3lfshipping with M0e/Dynam0e around May 2024, but the only record I have of it is that I drew suggestive art of him and Ace.

Ans that's a bit embarrassing.

Dude they have to add private accounts because this is embarrassing

Awesomesauce