Sanka [commissions open]

I won't say anything more, unless it's important.
Hope you have a nice day.

I'm sorry to disappoint people who aren't even part of my breakdown and wanted to see more of my AUs or other stuff. I can't explain more than just that I wasn't made for it and I just never want to draw again.

I feel humiliated. I have to compete for attention of my friends with tiktok and twitter and chat bots.
If I am a problem then I don't know how to fix myself any more. Maybe I am just not made for community. Maybe I am weaker than other people, and it's best I won't stay around.

I will start new job tomorrow, and it should help me to finally feel useful and that I finally do something and maybe I can finally afford pencils.
The internet is dead to me, and if I ever draw again for Sonic then it's def not in the near future, and def not not behind paywall.

Everything is too depressing. Someone even told me recently they don't deserve art from me because I draw better than them. Great. Now even being too good is a reason to put me down.
I can't enjoy anything without being scared it will make someone mad or upset, including me.

The AI art, chat bots over roleplay, fake promises of buying something from me, someone literally told me my art looks like something from a dead person, as it's only popular when the author is already dead.
It took a breakdown for someone to write to me on etsy.

If anyone wants their money back I can arrange that. Or please wait. Despite low mood, I still wish to finish everything.
I'm drawing raffle and AT right now, but it's just so it's done. Won't finish today, everything hurts.
I failed so many things. I just can't do this anymore.

Once I will finish all commissions I will be leaving the internet. Pursuing art as a profession is not for me. Nor being in Sonic fandom.
I'm really sick and I can barely move or eat. I wish to finish my artworks, but everything brings me pain.
Writing this is already too much.

Commission and it's for my own AU, what if I cry 😭🥺❤️
Added Sonic bc it made sense to me she was showing him the stars :>

Actually yes, I feel extremely unmotivated to do art, and it's a lot of reasons that I don't wanna get into - honestly considering going to work in some factory 12h a day for few months and just disappearing so pls don't be surprised if I will do it after finishing commissions...

He stole some dresses from his sister :>

Just some artwork dedicated to the weird Swap AU
#metalsonic #sonicthehedgehog

Cozy night ✨ (repost)
#sonadow

Oh no, his heart is lost...!
#sonicthehedgehog

Don't weep after him -
one tear is just enough.
#mephilesthedark #sonicthehedgehog #princesselise

Argh, I made it!
The keychains are available on etsy right now! :>
You can find it in the link below or in my bio!

If they sell well I plan to make more + other designs but let's see how it goes first 🙂‍↕️✨💐

www.etsy.com/listing/4385...

TIHI I mean, if Sonic has to bear the struggle of that curse why wouldn't he share it with the only one guy who actually knows about it :>
Plus I think it's extra fun when Sonic plays the invincible guy when in reality he just cannot NOT be broken, bc in other way the world will end ❤️

Headcanon #1

Memphis Thenses and the Blu Bub

Don't weep after him -
one tear is just enough.
#mephilesthedark #sonicthehedgehog #princesselise

:>

I'm so unorganised, like even if I would like to link someone my AUs I don't even know where to look myself, I will try to fix it, but aaa, the chaos in my mind...!

Some unfinished animation test with Shadow but from the AU

I wrote an opening to The Hurricane AU and now I am anxious to illustrate it, I don't feel fully capable of making good concepts recently... But I really wish to introduce everyone a bit to the lore and all crazy things I came up with, even if just bits of it.

I was looking trough my gallery and found some OCs I drew thinking about my friend when they didn't have a sona yet :>
I was thinking about making an adopt from them, but idk, I never sold any adopts before so I am not sure if people would be interested ^^"

#mephonic

He's delusional, I mean happy, of course, what wrong could possibly be happening, yes
#shadowthehedgehog