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weird lil thing

i need to make my own content...

anyway tiptoeing all those years without realizing i was even doing it couldnt possibly mean anything lol lmao

imagine needing to buy heels because normal shoes dont suit you because you've been tiptoeing your entire life and only noticed it when someone told you in your teens even though you thought you were walking normally all that time and now you're aware of it, walking normally isnt comfortable to you

i did this with different characters and now i wanna change it again because i experienced the very definition of hyperfixation

nothing serious but gwahhh i couldnt pick up a full jug of water with one hand uue

i think i have a fever

i need to buy myself a proper mug i cant keep making hot drinks in a plastic cup and burning my hands

this also feels like it weirdly applies to canon/non-canon ships in media as well because when a ship turns canon i feel like i get so disinterested and much prefer it stick to fandom delusion

thinking deeply about my lithromanticism is so interesting because damn i really do not give a damn about romance in reality

good to be back

this is a sign to keep it hidden and never know

i just took all this time on a test and i have to pay for it at the very end are you kidding me

also why tf is it never consistent one question is "i do not..." and then the next is "i do this..." LIKE BRO ARE YOU TRYING TO CONFUSE ME AND MAKE THIS TEST TAKE LONGER

in those moods where i do random mental illness tests online and im getting mad at a question because i react differently emotionally and rationally so i dont know what to even answer

why am i hungry again it feels like i just ate

having two insym videos up and one is of him being a police while the other is him as a robber we love flavour

getting a snack

thinking about that one art where they have a bunch of blocks being stacked representing regulating emotions and how i feel like i havent been able to stack my blocks properly like ever

i dont need any mental darkness today

mood swings acting uppp blegh

sometimes im surprised im as stable and adjusted as i am. dont get me wrong, my mental is BAD. like im the epitome of "you people cant do anything" and learn more everyday how fucked in the head i am. but all things considered, it's shocking im not worse

doing all the rituals i can so that i can focus for once in my damn life

like literally saw a post about said disorder and the EXACT thing i struggle with i might cry like omg people like me for real??

been seeing posts of a certain disorder and relating to most, if not all of it and i dunno whether i like it or not cuz on one hand "yay people who share my struggles!" but also wooooo more shit i might never get professional help with

FIRST STEP THAT'S HARDEST

yeah i played with them for one day i had like 20 customers </3

unfortunately i am on overtime day 4... im gonna die

LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOO

cant get doughnuts on plateup for the life of me