Kainen Bitez

I stepped back into being like survivor me and it hasn’t changed.

It’s worse.

I can’t undo all my work to be close to certain people and literally die trying.

I’m someone completely different now.

I’m a bit of an asshole , but it’s bc I value my physical and mental wellbeing now.

So be it , ig.

I got so sick last night and I still feel sick … my hallucinations came back since 2 yrs.

I’ve had enough. I’m fucking done.

meme art of kainen_vtuber

i made meme art of my biggest opp-

I used to stand back and hold everyone’s hands.
I can’t do that anymore.
That would mean everything I’ve been through , all my inner work would mean nothing.
I’m not letting myself get stepped on bc I’m actually genuine. While others choose to lie.
Pay attention to how people treat other people.

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In my alley cat era.
During the day I wear my smile ; trying to make the best of everything. But at night …
Into the morning …
I stare up at the sky while people and memories fade away.
Every nightfall.
They’re not coming back. They’re not changing.
We can only move forward.

stop fucking crying over what to do-
just fucking do it bc there's assholes out there doing whatever the fuck they want and no one gives a shit-

*gasps*

Let’s gooo !!!

Omg I can do the same- it’s so fucking fun as a little party trick that makes people laugh 😂

Lets go Freeze our Asses off together. You'll have to get a lil Closer to Stay warm ;3 . #ArcticAwakening
www.twitch.tv/flufflepimp

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i updated my pfp and banner againnnn-

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do stupid shit ?
Get stupid consequences.
Like losing our friendship.
Telling me I'm just as bad as my abuser ? - bc I chose to end a friendship bc YOU recorded MY SHIT without MY CONSENT IDK HOW MANY TIMES ?
YOU'RE NEVER ALLOWED IN MY SPACES EVER AGAIN.

Idk when I’m gonna change my stuff back.
I probably should tho-

It’s one thing to be stupid. I consider myself stupid.
But stupidity being the reason for lying and crossing boundaries is just … incredibly bad.
I can’t believe I made space for someone like that.
I deserve better and I’m going to continue to be more picky and vocal about what makes me uncomfy.

If you see this , quote with a gif of your first anime.

I WASNT EVEN A VTUBER YET AND I HAD PEACHY ORANGE IN MY HAIR-

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I found a clip of me from 2019 with porange in my hair.
So it went back that far huh-
Shitnen got nothin on me.
*sits on my clip that’s visibly dated proving it’s been a consistent thing for me and not him*

I hate that closeted me is haunting me through my lore I’m writing and also in random thought.

I thought I had laid her to rest.

Why … why aren’t you [[ a s l e e p ]] ?

I don’t want to be her again just bc everything hurts.

I hate feeling like this.

#transmasc #pmdd

I’m so happy to see that YouTube doesn’t want him.
Like he talked badly about women in a clip (mental illness in a woman is a factory mishap ???) and everyone was shitting on him in the comments LMFAOOOO

LIKE BRO YOURE A FACTORY MISHAP-

Yay !! I’m so happy you’re finally getting relief 💜

Twitch Twitch is the world

live, trying my best, in my lane, thriving?

www.twitch.tv/asmodeusthe

Yep.

Why do I keep putting up with these types of people.
I’m so tired.

So um yeah-
Don’t be screen sharing your computer drives with my MY OWN NSFW VODS on them-

God I can’t trust my friends anymore.
It’s a big deal bc:

1) shitnen
2) it’s against fansly tos
3) the friend og said they had no plans of ever watching my nsfw content , so i felt lied to-

Fuck liars bro.

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I’m so tired of trusting people.

I keep getting hurt.

It gives me so much anxiety the thought of asking people if I can cosplay them bc of what happened with Shitnen-

UGHHHHHHH

The trauma response needs to stop.

YES !! Doing something fun alongside art is so important !

Kainen dressed in a long sleeve goth shirt.

I went to hot topic today and this shirt is so gender AAAAAAA
#femboy #transmasc #transboy #blonde #goth #emo