Pan de Regla

It's too much please some one help me

Welp. He's definitely gonna break up with me tomorrow. Therapy is too expensive for me...

Oh I got ny period...hehehe everything is fine

I'm so tired of comforting myself. so tired of waiting for rescue. Now I know for certain no once is coming for me. Everything was just an illusion for me to stay alive and continue to suffer. If this is karma for my past actions then fine. You all win. I'm ending myself

Every holiday now is marked with bitter memories. From new year's until Christmas. All of it. And it would just be an endless cycle and the only plausible way of breaking it is killing myself

All the patterns I've seen bedore come crashing back oh god i don't want to hope again. I don't want to be hurt again

It's just disappointment after disappointment

It won't be too long before i break a promise and relapse again. My will is breaking honestly, i don't know how much mental damage i can take

I'm running out if motivation to stay alive. Almost every night i cry my heart put because of the pain. I'm to scared opening up to people again. In the end all of you are just strangers in discord.

I'm so tired man, i can't even live right

It's so hard not to think people will stab you the moment you let your guard down. Shit went down in 2025 and it really left me questioning my worth

I'm trying so hard to trust again but damn

I cut my hair and got ignored for 4 hours like ok sir

Third night I've been crying...I'm quitting my job and ending my life honestly

My sister is asleep...i feel sorry for her waking up and seeing my state. I feel sorry for the man who's still waiting for me. I can't do it anymore...I'm sorry...I'm sorry

I relapsed...

I slowly poisoned myself with the meds I'm taking.

I was not intentional at first...

But for now...it feels so heavy...I feel so hurt

God I feel so guilty...if I live by tomorrow I'll just delete this mess of a post

I'm so tired. I just...I just want it to be over...I'm sorry I could not keep my promise of being strong.

I don't know why I am still holding on for a tomorrow that was never meant for me. On a promise that my life would be better. To be called a blessing when every voice in my head screams that I am nothing but a curse

He hasn't even met me...so he shouldn't have grown attached too much yet, right? He'll move on when I'm dead.My parents have each other, they'll be fine. My sister has her friends...she'll be fine.My two bestfriends have each other for comfort.They'll be fine. They'll just have to get over the grief

I'm not sure if I can live another day like this. Thinking I am not good enough. I feel sorry for the two men in my life who told me they love me. My father and my boyfriend. They would be devastated by this loss...but I don't see another tomorrow for me

There are several reasons on why I plan to take away my life. The biggest one is the trauma my own mother gave me. To be raised as a perfectionist and now I can't handle failure. The love I know is violent. There maybe no physical scars on the abuse I had as a child, but there sure are mental ones

I can't live like this, I can't live like I am a ghost of a person. I have told her that I could not bear another betrayal, and I really can't.

I have been given everything, everything so I can stay happy, but all I felt was being a bird in a cage. Everytime I try to love it is used against me. I don't even know how to feel at times without people telling me how to.

And baby I'll kiss you good night. Goodbye, I'm letting my demons win tonight

I hope the best for everyone

Not xvn or bardlatus related but my boyfriend is such a damn green flag I want to shoot myself out of happiness djsjsjs Olav I fucking love you so much

ah...what a lovely night to take my final bow