Sam (formerly Barisan Hantu) 🇸🇬🍉

I feel like all the wires for socialising that came loose during autistic burnout have kind of reconnected, finally. But it sucks because currently I'm just socially aware of how much I suck at human interaction and haven't quite relearnt how to connect with other human beings lol

2.5k is the cost through the public healthcare system here, so I can't imagine what it must be unsubsidised

You know you have ADHD when you have been taking ADHD meds for something like 7 years but you've only just calculated for the first time that your meds cost you 2.5k a year

I don't fully understand other folk at work. Is it largely a thing that people don't have room to pushback, ask questions and negotiate with higher ups?

Because I simply cannot function that way regardless of which role I'm playing

I've been away from social media for quite a bit and it's been great. Not entirely related but reflecting on my work persona and realising the extent to which I absolutely do not connect with people and wondering how I could possibly be anything but autistic

It turns out that everytime in the past I was behaving "unprofessionally" it was because I was being taken advantage of and reacting appropriately, but also being autistic and getting confused by people's reactions to the situation

Not to say we shouldn't talk about things explicitly, I've just learnt that it's not that easy to do so

Pro tip to all my fellow autistic people: calling out injustice or bad behaviour at work generally doesn't go well; naming things explicitly usually backfires in contrast to acting quietly

Generally my best approach seems to be to come across as naive and nice (and easily taken advantage of) which leads to people letting down their guard and showing their true colours. Then I can act in response and I've learnt direct confrontation isn't ideal

Maybe I've sort of figured out how to use my autistic traits to navigate workplace politics, although some strategies need refinement and aren't without drawbacks

Like I need to know when I can't drive or check important documents

I need an internet speed test but for my attention span

I'm so irritated by my errors this term that I'm gonna set up like twenty different excel sheets to automatically cross check my own information

I might be autistic but sometimes it's other people who are fucking weird (derogatory)

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I became an urban cyclist because ever since I was a little girl it’s been my dream to be murdered by a driver of a Nissan Altima with a 120 month car loan

Middle of the road is like perfect silhouette for being shot

I was genuinely afraid that Nathan would buy the broken 737 with bird nests and missing seats and make his actors fly in them

Ok caught up haha I dont think that moment was that bad personally 😬

Something that really annoys me in Last of Us is the way they move around by walking in the middle of the road, which is like the least tactical way they could position themselves

I don't disagree entirely! I mean, there's texture to any label we put on people

To produce Secretaries of Education for the US, from what I know

Oh my god I was halfway through ep7 ytd I cannot comprehend how it gets to what you're describing

I doubt history is as black and white and hero vs villain as people like, but I do still kinda walk away thinking Edison was a businessman and Tesla was a scientist; how we evaluate that is a matter of values

Yep I think there's room to critique the social model but most folks get it wrong from the get go

That's really cool!

Tom from Succession is Mr Darcy????

I'm probably extremely late to realising this

Am I saying that following Nathan's fake airport being used to help autistic kids get used to air travel, there should be a lot more HBO money going to build sets for more autistic scenarios?

I wanna joke and say no, but mostly I want to say yes lol

Haha I just don't have time to post much. Pretty maxed out with work and family right now!

I'm leaning towards putting my autism advocacy on pause because I'm finding that I really get quite a lot of ableism even without declaring my diagnoses that openly