some kinda mutt

i've avoided the gacha so far but if they made umamusume but with puppygirls it'd be over for me

it's uncomfortable and nauseous and it has nightmares when it goes to sleep

i wish dopamine was real

brain: hey go take your meds bud

also brain: you are gonna sit perfectly still and play 2048 and think about every bad thing you've ever done til you wanna rip your skin off :)

serious weakness is somehow the most beautiful romance i've read in a long time, which is veerrrryyy funny to me for reasons that should be obvious

such a vile vile book, so fucked up and gross, actually hot and interesting and perfect highly recommend 12/10

my Owner is gonna get ideas now thanks!

i wish... i wishhh i...

just by nature

we're a system i guess

apparently taking calculated risks (like making friends and not just napping all day) can sometimes lead to fun and joy and discovery type stuff?

the fuck do you mean i'm allowed to have fun going *outside my comfort zone*, ugh

some days i feel like i *am* that voice, most days i feel like i'm the one it's yelling at. the latter is better because at least i can keep it away from others, even if it stops me from wanting to do anything at all

it's hard to do anything at all when you have a voice or several screaming at you about how useless you are and how much whatever you're doing or saying sucks and how you deserve to die for it, wouldn't recommend personally

i feel like every day i lose more and more will to create. i used to love drawing, used to love writing, used to love playing music.
it's like it's all being locked away somewhere without my knowledge. making things actively hurts now, feels like my skin is being ripped off just lifting a finger

"I know you are questioning if it was all worth it, the death, the suffering, the destruction. But first, dame knight, survive long enough to make it home to those who wait for you."

never kill yourself

best girl this best girl that no more best girls ok i'm beyond done with that i want the worst girls, the worst ones imaginable, i want the most rancid girlthings you can find, doing shit you've never even conceived of, being toxic and awful to *me* specifically. this is not a debate.

i hope you stay safe
i hope you keep being strong
i hope you never let them take what makes you special
i hope you find love and peace and contentment
i hope one day you don't have to be scared anymore
i hope you always remember that hate and fear stand no chance against love.

spit in their faces.

girls are great too i like people, things, unknowable eldritch entities even

boys really do make the best girls huh

bnnuy!

i didn't think Tyler was ever gonna top IGOR and it's probably always gonna be my favorite but CHROMAKOPIA is easily one of the best albums i've ever heard in my life, 11/10 this shit is beautiful and this man does not fucking stop

ashamed it took me this long to get a few full listens in

Masayoshi Takanaka should honestly be prescribed as an antidepressant, i swear this man has captured and distilled the essence of the dreamcast

summer heat ultra agony death disease - symptoms: a bit too hot for a bit too long

DANGAR

Paper-Girl-Chain by Bagenzo, Middle Sea Software playing favorites

bagenzo.itch.io/paper-girl-c...

Someone made a game about my brain, it's neat go play it

Also don't look at me.

I wish I had challenged my assumptions about people more.

Sometimes you just can't be around someone, maybe forever- lots of valid reasons for that. I've got a few of those myself.

At the same time though, it warms my heart to see how much people can change for the better while you're not looking

Honestly? Yeah I totally would, I remember hearing that the Dreamcast controller had one but hearing that this thing was first is super interesting!

I just learned that this exists, what was Sega smoking in the 90s?? I love these cute, awkward, transitional 3d controllers

I have to own one of these, like... It's so adorably egg-y, I wanna push her buttons

Like, a few years of HRT and she'll make an even more gorgeous Dreamcast controller~

Music is just...
Agh, it's everything

So many times I've been down and out of it and I just put on something fun that I can sing along to and I feel so much better instantly

Basically, Coheed and Cambria of all bands is staving off the depression and hey I'll take what I can fucking get lmao