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feeling very beaten down by being single, unemployed for almost 3 months and living alone

really feeling the loneliness tonight

day 2 done. happy so far

day 1 on the set of my first film tomorrow

i should just start operating an 'only leave the flat when totally necessary' policy

big fml moment tonight

nothing's worth it anymore, everything makes me feel suicidal. wish i had a gun

just want to smash up my whole flat

lol the bad news and setbacks just keep piling up, i need to just end it

every day i feel more and more like i'm not meant to be here

what the fuck is even the point in staying alive

first time in a good while i've woken up angry and then gone to bed still fucking angry

wish i was fucking dead

~15-22-year-olds are SO self-conscious and SO terrified of being perceived as cringe in the slightest way, but they also sit and play shit out loud on their phones in an otherwise silent train carriage. i've had enough

i don't need to go out with anyone i have the whole western canon of classical music. keep repeating this to myself

enjoying having many skills, none of them marketable

saw clarissa connelly last night, took no pics (this is for my own reference)

remember last summer when everyone was going to venice and calling it 'venezia' on instagram

the phrase 'coffee shop' makes me fucking boke

lesson learned: when you fancy someone, do NOT tell ANYONE

would love it if i knew a single person who would ever make a single concession to me

close to having a mark crorigan moment on people saying things like 'i have went'

my job makes me feel like such a fucking idiot

can't wait for the moustache trend to be over (i could definitely grow a good one but my mum would disapprove) (and so would i tbh)

i think this is maybe me still being annoyed at the 'negroni sbagliato' thing

my nastiest opinion is that if you're approaching 30 and you don't know how to pronounce italian words you're lazy and uncurious. also if you don't like any classical music at all

a few days ago i was telling one of my friends that i used to think a mutual friend of ours didn't like me, and she went 'but everyone likes you'. possibly the best thing that's happened to me in years

i really like inta habibi by youssef chahine. am aware that's only one