Anri/Bunny

immovable object vs unstoppable force of #jayvik fic: their emotionally repressed torturous slowburn vs their immediate and undeniable chemistry that leads to them jumping each other within 5 seconds of meeting

its so hard to prove you're a not high risk patient anymore😭 i havent self harmed in 4 years and i want to move away from the 1 week med allowances i have and the psych is like "hm how about 2 weeks?" please i am So Chill and Normal now 😭😭

someone commented that on my fic and I was like 🥺🥺

melbunny #melmedarda

singersongwriter #jayvik au where all of jayces songs use the pronoun "she" and viktors like "see hes straight" but jayce is actually writing songs abt him and changing the pronouns bc hes been told its more marketable until one day he slips up

oooh 👀👀

im so scared abt the prospect of roommates bc my deaf insomniac ass just rattles around the house at night being followed by a shrieking cat just making so much noise and not realising. and then when i do sleep i sleepwalk so. i am a catch

Finished Jayvik Kinktober and did some color studies!
Another study is up on Patreon, if you’d like to check it out 💖

www.patreon.com/posts/143282...

#jayvik #jaycetalis #viktor #arcane #arcanefanart

and then i lied again

day 6: choking
freaks (affectionately)
#bottomjayceweek #jayvik

thinking abt a third jayvik fic abt musician jayvik. it deff includes angry punk viktor. also thinking abt combining it with jayce discovering his queerness & kinks. maybe i will actually plan this one. lol #jayvik

A drawing of jayce talis with his back to us and hands clasped behind his back

Realized i never did a study of this pose from the 1st season soo. #jaycetalis

i have a dissertation due in february. instead my brain wants to start a third jayvik fic

but genuinely the gothic romance/horror potential of the story they gave jayce and viktor??? Love changes you but its your partner violating your corpse and erradicating your humanity if it means keeping one single shred of you with him. And then the show Barely Talked About It #jayvik

🥹🥹 thank u so much for his

thank u for liking my fics where i give jayce increasingly complex mental health problems. everytime i think abt his behaviour i think abt all the disorders he should have been diagnosed with and all the ones i have, too. #jayvik

the audacity of the thing that gives my writing flavour (severe mental illness) to also be the thing that harms me and my writing

as someone who relies on meds to live my number 1 reality breaker for any modern au with viktor is when he can just spend the night randomly with no planning. that man is on like 15 different meds at least, where is his pill box!!! #jayvik

one of my favourite niches for #jayvik is them becoming fuck buddies and convincing themselves its absolutely platonic and driving themselves up the wall being like 'Oh he only gets me off as a buddy :('

why does trauma have the weirdest side effects ever. what do you mean i broke my toes bc trauma gave me ptsd which gave me sleepwalking problems which means i fall out of bed a lot which means i smashed my foot against a bookcase which broke my toes

my 2 cents as a deaf person is probably hoh jayce realising he's not actually been listening because hes focused too much on how beautiful Viktors lips are. lipreading takes a lot of focus and instead hes just been 👁👄👁

if i write a fic and it includes a jayce talis who talks in length about being inpatient for psychosis and mental illness, you best mind your business about it

trauma is so whack what do you mean i was doing so well and now everything is awful again just bc its a little cold outside

They have to sleep facing each other bc they can’t handle waking up and not seeing the other’s face #jayvik #arcane

its nearly a Year Since Trauma and i am doing so well. (currently cant focus and having to wash myself in the bath because i will scream and cry and lose my shit if i have to shower. but then all i do is lie in the bath and think abt Trauma)

i do 3 things currently. 1. write my diss. 2. write jayvik 3. experience bad ptsd and dissociative symptoms

and the way it's kind of.... agendered? The lack of any distinctive masculine figures to denote that Viktor was a man, and instead this slim waist with doll-like hips, the longer hair, the otherall just twinkification. bc the og machine herald did not look that way. So why change so much???

like part of me is like. does it say something about how viktor sees his own sexuality? that he felt unable to have one as a working class, physically disabled man marginalised in society, or is he only able to really explore it once he's given this mask that he can hide behind?

i think a lot abt how erotic they made viktor's machine herald form, because it confuses me. the way the automaton walks, the way it handles jayce, the confidence but also gentleness in his voice? viktor, despite having this overwhelming power over people, CHOOSES to present like this

Like idk if anyone not from the UK knows about The Northern Boys, a trio of old men from liverpool who do hip hop (two of them rap, Kev dances) but Please do find them

potentially writing a musician au for #jayvik (Jayce is a goodhearted accoustic guitar boy and Viktor is an angry punk) but a) all the music references i want are Very British and b) I can only Hear Music through my hearing aids or noise cancelling headphones turned up to "Damages Hearing"