convincing but fickle

Not pictured: great brunch with Sydney people + the travelling ateez NZers, being at my one year old niece’s birthday party yesterday and seeing beloved family, the maniacal organising @thatgoodnight.bsky.social and I have been doing tonight

Some Sydney

Still reading this as deceased sausage

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Adrenaline jongho study (((jorehead supremacy)

STUNNING

Sir Gawain Fucks the Green Knight Here’s a tale ripe for telling. Can’t say where I heard it first—in pretty French or Dutch. Perhaps as a young lady walking ‘longside the Rijn. I’ll spin it for you in an English tongue, fine as frost on lace, sweet as malmsey wine. So it goes that young Gawain, strength kissed into his limbs, fresh as the bright dawn, comes trembling down to the Green Chapel. You’ve heard this tale, I know. His breath makes peach fuzz in the air, fear into him like worm to apple. Christmas Morn is too soon, time is short. You have your own life to save, he says, picking through thorn and bough to an ivy-clad cave. The creature is the Jack O’ the Glen / forest prince / the wood’s own laughter. Beard of lichen and eyes like dark elder. I need not repeat their exchange—my boy’s flinching heart—a songbird in a rattled cage. It is after the blows are dealt, he asks, what god is worshipped in these green trees? Boy, the Knight replies, boy, were you not just down on your knees? The Knight is the tang of sap / bark rough and petal soft / everywhere leaves scatter / easily crushed / Gawain clings / hardly knows what he clings to / he is the forest and the flower / a turmoil of roots / where god and tree meet and melt / the birch the oak the fern the deer / mushroom maggot crow / here Gawain is branch and bud / blow returned for blow

This is a sheer indulgence on my part, but it turns out I never actually shared the poem here, so:

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It’s so hot today. He’d die.

Your face went so quickly from ‘yesss’ to ‘oh no’ as you took possession

She’d already hooked me into reading BTS, but I was swearing it was just fic, l wasn’t into this whole Kpop phenomenon… I wasn’t listening to the music… or watching the content…..

Midnight post-show gelato in Chinatown while the shop blasts Umbrella (ella ella) 🥰

Jongho forcing Mingi to sing his solo song 🥰 #ateez #ateezinsydney

It was so good

(The first attempt in Vienna in 2022 didn’t take, but then she showed up in New Zealand in 2023 with a dedicated PowerPoint and a mission, and by 2024 we were watching them live in Milan, and now two shows in Australia in 2026). 🩷🩷🩷

Seventeen has also been load-bearing emotional support, but I’m really glad @thatgoodnight.bsky.social got me into Ateez, I needed it.

Got a little teary at the end of the Sydney show. It sounds silly but the past two years+ of ivf/infertility have been really, really hard and the kpop dopamine has been loadbearing

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I can’t imagine any reboot I want less than firefly

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I keep straightening my hair in the morning and Sydney’s humidity goes, oh, you thought? And it is a curly frizzy mess ten minutes after stepping out the door.

[warding off gesture]

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Thirteen hour day trip! Luckily it ended up being the coldest day of the trip so far and we saw a bunch of wild koalas and kangaroos as well as the Twelve Apostles, I’m really glad we went. My hips hated the van a lot, though.

In Sydney with @thatgoodnight.bsky.social now, but some Melbourne photos

Not at all surprised you won. They almost look too cute to eat.

She pulled an Elizabeth Taylor!