Cioran

almost there with this project

It is donee, getting on to the next one

What I've been working on is a simpler version of my more polished shapey style, whatever it may be i dont have a name for it yet id probably name it " SECRET SIGMA BACKFLIP ARTSTYLE " type shit.

chippin away at this, been enjoying the process

I dream of having a stable schedule and life for so long, without any family drama and or unnecessary struggles. I want to live normally, and I want to have time to take care of myself.

These 3 pillars of jobs that i have been working so hard on and has been supporting me in rebuilding my life are tied to the past and i want to let it go and start a new. I respect all of those who have supported me and my only goal is to bring quality to the table and that has never changed.

My irl contract is almost over which means one of my chains of hell is about to be released i just want to draw with passion and without messy schedules.

My teaching job ends in august thats another chain released soon. And after that there are commissions, i enjoy doing them but....

Juicy 🐔 no.2

Juicy 🐔

Where do you go in the darkness when you're alone in your bed?. How do you dream when you're just a machine
Imagining colors you can't see?

And so I took a little detour from work and enjoyed myself once again, as I was tired.

Another WIP

WIP

Kind of not happy with the face high chance im going to change it later

Lil progress of this

GO GET IT KINGGGG

might gonna be my new magnum opus this one.

Been working on the color design id be streamin em this weekend

Have another WIP

Lil progress

have another one

Comm WIP

Personal project WIP

More are coming up next month mainly comms project

My humble offering to those who have shown me love, support, and care, this is my story, or at least a small part of it.

All this pain and suffering will not be in vain. You’ll see the results soon.

18. The burnout, the mental chaos, it never vanished. But I faced it. I kept going. Life’s actually pretty good now. Not perfect. Not fully healed. But progress is progress. It might not seem like much, but I want to be better. I have dreams. One step at a time.

17. I settled in a place I could finally call home, where old friends, people I’ve known for a decade or more, were nearby. And from that day, I began the grueling, painful grind of rebuilding. It’s been a year. No lies, it wasn’t easy. But I endured it.

16. I felt like life would never get better. I tried to end it all, but couldn’t bring myself to do it. In that moment, something changed. I packed my things, left it all behind, and drove 2000 km to start from zero, rebuilding my life from absolutely nothing.

15. By March 2024, near my birthday, someone I deeply loved and trusted left me over something I still think was unfair. It shattered me. And just two months later, on May 9th, 2024, I lost my grandmother in a hit-and-run accident. It was too much to bear.

14. But I persevered. I kept coming back, doing what had to be done. Day in and day out, I tried to cope hour after hour fighting my crumbling mental state. It felt like I was slowly losing my mind. I found love, only to be betrayed again and again.

13. Beyond the family mess, I was juggling commissions, IRL work, and my teaching job. I’d changed. I was drained. On top of it all were betrayals from friends, heartbreaks, and failed relationships. Every time I tried to get better, life hit back harder.

12. I couldn’t live like that, so I convinced Grandma to file a restraining order in June 2023. It was hard, but we pulled through, and they left us alone at least for a while. For a moment, I thought things might finally settle down... but they didn’t.

11. Unlike Grandad, Grandma wasn’t well off. They’d divorced long ago, and the family had split. Her side of the family wasn’t financially stable. They often came to her for money, sometimes even stealing from her savings. Worse, they pressured me to give them money.

10. After everything, my sister and I finally caught a break. We could breathe under Grandma’s care. The family knew where we went but didn’t do much. I thought things were finally good, but life has a way of creeping in and ruining what little peace you find.