Julia

Also I need to structure some paperwork so bureaucracy won’t be a headache for rest of the family.

My main concern is my cats, I need to make sure they’ll be taken care of and have some money saved for their healthcare needs. They’re 2-3-4 y.o. Cats usually live for around 18-20 years if all good.

Specialists say, it’s not uncommon thing to think of death when you’re depressed.
But it’s more dangerous when a person is at the stage of planning it.
And here we are, I’m creating instructions on how to proceed with this or that thing once I’ll be gone.

Oh wait. Fckn covid. :/ it’s second time for this year.

Spotify playlist

You know it’s gonna be fuuuun ride when you see the recommended playlist in the very beginning of the book 👌

Muse - Time Is Running out, video

I dont always lisen to Muse, but when i do, so do my neighbours (c)

Once upon a time there’s a mood to read smutty stuff.
And for November I’ve read
1. Pestilence by Laura Thalassa
2. The lady unmasked by Aydra Richard’s

Both could be much better 🫠🫠🫠
For whatever reason it was boring.

Meanwhile being away from here for some amount of time I came to conclusion to close my instagram account. And have reserve one to keep track on artists I like (fantasy drawing accounts and some sims 4 builds!)
What can I say, my life has become calmer. 🤣

Well at least it’s not eyeball anymore 🤣

Two tennis balls!

This one is from fourth session. Still trying to draw spheres. And shadowing. Ugh 😤

On this picture Julia is trying to draw multiple spheres following with shadows.

On this picture Julia is trying to draw multiple spheres following with shadows kind of “advanced version”.

Apparently I go from first picture to second picture in the progress.
Shadows !!!
It was third and fifth session.

Thank you 🥹

Or as in my first option if you need to survive that also helps to cut off any blocks that stop you but that’s unhealthy way XD

I’m in the same boat with you.
I’ll drop you a weird tip: if you find what you like/love to do, there won’t be any escapism, you’d genuinely want to do it.
Also open YouTube channel of Doctor K “HealthyGamerGG”. He’s psychiatrist. He’s really great at explaining on what are the options, etc.

In one box I have my shattered life.
In another box I have reality.
I’m learning how to live more freely in the reality.
So damn annoying when it’s constantly switch back because of this or that trigger popups 🫠

You know what is hell?
When you follow this scientific method whenever possible/when you feel you can.
And you have PTSD.
And you’re AuDHD. And your PTSD is based on this. And your ex family.
Trust me it’s like entering a fridge room - going outside of your own experience of life. 🤣

The scientific method diagrams

I like these two diagrams.
There also should be unbiased behaviour otherwise you’ll press everything into your own beliefs and that’s not how the world processing.
The idea is that you’re open to discovering things.

I’ve just remembered the scientific method XD
Duh yes this one. It requires a lot to know to make a decision but that’s a good healthy way to discover something.
If only everyone in the world could use it.
We would have more educated generations and less shit on the internet as result.

There are moments when I think I have an idea of what’s happening, but by thorough conversation I see that I luck knowledge, that my dots are not connected and that specific person helps me to find a way to search in another direction for information.

In my position there is nothing wrong at all if you admit you don’t know something. In my daily life I meet some fantasticly self-educated people. Instead of pulling out my ego to prove my right (when I-have no damn idea), I spend my time with them discovering/learning new things.

If someone is uneducated as hell and spreads misinformation.
Is it even possible to that person admit its own ignorance? 🤔 probably no? 🤔 in that case everyone around of course do not know anything but this one does know what’s saying? 🤔
trying to catch the education crisis vibe in the world 🫠

Sphere draw on white paper. Learning how to draw

I teach myself drawing.
Following first lesson, I draw this.

My husband: it looks like eyeball
Me: it’s sphere 🫠

-_-

Mark Kistler said if you wish you can keep it to yourself from everyone. But why when you can feel shame more often! Lol 🤣🤣
I’ll see how it goes

sometimes i delete a post because i've grown as a person in those 45 seconds

Bluesky at the moment feels like a warm bubble. I like it here 🤫

That’s quite interesting solution to avoid hashtag overuse 😁

- hope your day starts well? I’ve got a task for you
- actually it was pretty shit. What is it about?

Holly molly 🫠x10

Actually, despite my brain answers this way, I was brutally taught to behave. So I “know” the rules and “correct” answers. But I’ll never answer why they force you to behave.

Second this. That’s so important. At the moment it’s barely possible to find unbiased person out here on the internet. Not even mentioning real life.

Wow, thank you for the handy list!

Welcome, Pete!
Sincerely thank you for your book 🥹