Starhead

Hoy I'm Star also known as Starhead I'm an amateur artist and wannabe game designer who mostly hyperfixate on cute twinks I also draw and make pixel art support me on kofi if you want to and maybe in the future I'll open comms!

I would love that lol

No taro sadly... (Amazing art though!)

Cool

Oh yeah I think some politician guy died or something idk

a drawing of a skeleton holding a bunch of colored pencils . ALT: a drawing of a skeleton holding a bunch of colored pencils .

Omg I going to get a job

Birthday today

*But I can't push myself to hard focus on drawing or game design because I get either too unmotivated and depressed so I have to take a break but when I do take a break I feel like a failure and I should be productive but I'm extremely hesitant to draw, a perfectionist, and low energy

I always wanted to be a game designer as a kid but I never made a single game let alone a demo and I'm going to turn 19 I always feel insecure and envious of people who are younger than me making better art or games than me as it feels like I've been slacking off my entire life but I can push myself

I've been extremely unsure about my skill as an artist mostly because I feel like I could've been a lot better if I started taking drawing seriously sooner but school work and the pandemic held me back so I feel as if I'm barely catching up this goes for all of my passionate skills I want to pursue

I'm tired of hearing "how are you going to handle a job if you can't listen to me or how are you going to talk to your boss this"

I'm getting so tired of my parents constantly nagging me about getting a job or preparing me to "handle" a job I swear I'm getting tired of their shit if I haven't already been overwhelmed with finally being able to fully focus on my hobbies and trying to not be depressed

Man summer break is nearing the end and I feel as if I'm not ready yet to actually start being responsible although I have been trying to get my shit together finally I'm just really nervous getting a job for the first time and I'll be focusing my time on learning art and coding mostly

Ashamed to admit it but the most I've been doing this summer was playing games trying to escape reality I did work on my hobbies slightly by getting ideas written down or getting more artwork to study and practice but I don't feel proud of doing the bare minimum

I need to get my shit together

I really haven't been productive lately or at all this summer I've been mostly too depressed, lazy, hesitant, and unmotivated to draw or work on any projects I'm kinda disappointed in myself that I didn't doodle every day or just learn how to actually make drawing fun again

Some shitty doodles I've done

Should I play black souls it just got announced on steam and it looks interesting and reminds me of fear and hunger although I've heard there's some messed up things you can do in the game so I'm not really sure

Can no one else access wplace or is it just me?

Man it's really sad how a lot of my twitter moots are not on bluesky or maybe they just forgot about me

Also I've been feeling a lot better now been relaxing enjoying comfort media although I have been slacking off occasionally doodling and I feel bad for not doing anything productive but I'm thinking about getting a job or start learning to drive

I recently beat GTA IV and it's a masterpiece

Maybe I should cut down on social media usage as I'm feel like I'm slowly becoming a doomer

I'm still pretty depressed and miserable have a feeling this is going to be a common feeling throughout my adult life now

I've been extremely paranoid over what is real or what is AI now that I fear I won't even know anymore it really scares me

It's kinda sad that I'm genuinely thinking about killing myself if AI gets too advanced and artists will just be replaced forever

Fates is considered the 14th installment as the paths feel like 1/3 of the game I guess for echoes it's the 15th installment even though it's a remake as fire emblem 3, 11, and 12 were also remakes

even though it is pride month I've never actually came out to my family not because they're homophobic or anything I just still feel embarrassed when it comes to opening up to my family in general also being bisexual (at least to me) isn't a really HUGE thing like oh I also love boys too so what?

oh yeah I have a ko-fi btw it's Ko-fi.com/starhead20 I'm not accepting any commission right now but if you want you could support me I guess

The only source I have is seeing someone on Twitter TL saying that he was which is a shame I really liked the characters he voiced