EepyLexieレクシー

I wish I wasnt socially horrible
it would be nice to actually join people on resonite on stream (literally I just sat in a solo world for 30 mins on stream)
I want to bring better content to my streams and that will involve me getting over a lot of anxiety
go play resonite btw i loved all 30 mins

easier said than done
but the harm it does to shame something for a video and views instead of helping and promoting good faith is damaging rather than building
constructive criticism takes the better path while rage bait does not
im not an organized person im sorry if my thoughts jump around :(

personally in a probably very misguided opinion
I love japan
the good and bad
it hurts to see toxic media targeting japan and the people who make content about it
let people live
instead of calling one person or thing out for being wrong
why not work together to find balance and improve together

fixed the rotation to be more like minecraft but theres still the body lagging behind a bit

I have a very broken player controller in my sandbox game
the model is from minecraft
I might have to procedurally animate the body instead of using animations on the arms and legs
I also need another solution to the slight delay the body has following the head
just a small progress update :3

Also in japanese ive been learning for so long and only know
はい、皆さん。こんにちは。おげんきですか？
I cant read kanji or katakana and most hiragana
I only know up to the t row
I take very long breaks often and I just cant learn anything

I dont know what I want to focus on anymore
game dev?
japanese?
attempt art?
I think im lost because I always get stopped by an obstacle
game dev with actual problem solving
japanese with learning in general
and art with a major skill issue

gonna attempt to remake my sandbox gmod clone in godot again
just make it cleaner at the base all the way to the final game :3
if anyone has ideas I have a discord server (im more active on discord than bsky) discord.gg/PQkZ7gYM

there isnt specific channels for game dev yet tho
#gamedev #godot

I cant just apply this to everything in its base form
theres complications
theres obstacles
theres depression
but its only the end when you let it be
back when my world had no color in it, everything was drained, the word "Someday" made me keep going
make someday happen, someday

YouTube video by XayXay The 1 Mistake TommyInnit Never Made

www.youtube.com/watch?v=T7yJ...
if I learned one thing
you only live once
so live it
#technobladeneverdies

My English is getting worse lmao

I still want to be good at something
I tried streaming
Making videos (I need to try more niche stuff like learning japanese on Roblox or something)
Art (pixel I'm slightly better at than full size art)
I feel like just a nobody when I go on social media :(

my brain is fried from learning japanese

im gonna make a deltarune clone (like unique story and stuff but a jrpg) as my first finished game
lmao im gonna fail so hard

I'm coming back home so I can stream again yay :3 stream tomorrow possibly (maybe Monday if not on the weekend)

going away from home for a week :3 see yall soon <3

I was joking about the innocence thing, I lost that long ago, I used to hate swearing even

WAIT WHY IS #japanese MOSTLY PORN WTF
MY INNOCENCE NOOOOOoooooo ooh titties :3
but really whats the tag for the language? is it #日本語 ?

I am chronically online :3 honestly better than filling out a j*b application

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doomscrolling makes me lose trust in humanity :(
even in myself - im a really disorganized person and its killing me, I make the most random posts every few days to months
this makes me want to talk about mental health in a yt video or something idk (im far from skilled enough to make a video)

I really want streamer friends so im not lonely when playing minecraft :(
if youre interested in minecraft, japanese, streaming, and more I think we would be great friends :3 send a message uwu
#streaming
#minecraft
#japanese
<3

Akiramenai Homeless Rehabiliation | アキラメナイ Akiramenai meaning "Don't give up" is a homeless rehabilitation program in Tokyo… アキラメナイ”プロジェクトとは、東京でのホームレスの方々に生活面でのケアや社会復帰のためのサポートをしていくことをはじめ…

I found a website dedicated to helping the homeless in japan
www.jpkb.org/akiramenai

the reason one of the tags is in japanese is because I saw a video about toyoko kids in tokyo, meaning surviving in hotels and not permanent residence with their families or even alone, along with mental health in japan seeming to me like it has a major loneliness issue, im also biased about japan

I still dont know how tags work, but ive come up with some ideas for spreading awareness about invisible homelessness and mental health not being Severe enough (probably related?? im not that put together sorry ;-;) #JustBarely #ギリギリ生活 #InvisibleHomelessness im gonna check if these exist rn too

Sadly this is just a dream because I'm not able to financially support or plan an organization for anything

I saw a video about invisible homelessness in Japan where a lot of individuals worked by day to earn a nights rest in a manga cafe with the next day being next nights living
I'm not the best with words but I feel like putting together some kind of organization for helping people in general

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www.twitch.tv/eepylexie

Gonna stream a language exchange world in vrchat :3 I really feel motivated to learn japanese and make friends :3
私は日本語を勉強!!
#vrchat
#enjp
#日本語
#streaming
still dont know how tags work

Im getting back into learning Japanese
I really want to hang out with a group and speak Japanese almost exclusively like in minecraft
#日本語
#smp
#minecraft
I still dont know tags