Allison

I’m one of those people who dream every night. Heck I even remember my dreams when I nap in the afternoon. As far back as I can remember till childhood.

Auroras part 3 - some lovely colors popped up too, besides the common green.

Woah, the displays on my final night in Sweden were insane!

Yes! To be honest with the naked eye it’s quite disappointing. A greyish green smear across the sky. It only looks good on photos.

From my aurora shoot last night. At Abisko, Sweden.

Not all terfs are transphobes and not all transphobes are terfs.

Don’t let him watch the movie though. Traumatised so many kids.

You look gorgeous now.

I’m out of the loop. What’s going on?

‘Unprecedented risk’ to life on Earth: Scientists call for halt on ‘mirror life’ microbe research Experts warn that mirror bacteria, constructed from mirror images of molecules found in nature, could put humans, animals and plants at risk of lethal infections

I had no idea this kind of research was going on. Sometimes curiosity isn’t always the best.

www.theguardian.com/science/2024...

Maybe my way is less draining. I don’t know. I boymode for the whole week and maybe find 2 hrs or so to be me. Sometimes a whole week goes by and I don’t even get that.

Having to change in and out of boymode multiple times a day sounds so hard.

Interesting! I used to paint and I can definitely relate. Being so proud of myself at my early attempts but as I improved they looked childish and clunky.

It’s akin to our transition really.

I used to hate myself instead. Thoughts like “What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I be like other people?”

Signal boosting this.

People harass us because they thrive on the conflict itself. They get joy out of feeling like they made us mad. Denying them that feedback robs the *entire* fun of it from them.

The first person I came out to, I figured was safe, and also since we were not super close, I could risk losing him if it didn't go well. It went ok.

The second person was also someone I thought would be safe. That time (today actually) went much better.

I've read so many stories of people coming out, but I didn't really understand how important it feels to be seen as we are. Until I did it myself and couldn't ask for a more supportive response. It's one person out of many more to come, but I know now that my time in the closet will be limited.

My therapist told me "write letters to the people you hate and burn them." Dude that, but now I don't know what to do with letters.

Good morning!☕️✌️

Particularly for me being in an Asian culture where conformity is expected, it’s even harder.

Being transgender goes against every fibre of my being, my fundamental instinct to want to blend in and be invisible. That was the first thing I had to fight.

I default back to old learned male behaviors, and it feels comfortable. That in itself brings dysphoria because damn it, it shouldn't feel comfortable.

Zelda players will know why I took this pic.

And we want people to recognize us as us, how we see ourselves. Living a lie feels wrong.

It’s one of the scariest things we ever have to do in our lives. And yet we crave to do it because staying in the closet is just awful.

I haven’t socially transitioned either so I’m wondering the same thing by the way.

Street vendor in Hanoi.

Definitely. I only realised I was trans and ND late in life at 49, but I’m so glad I found a community and friends who fit in that Venn diagram. Like @heyitsdani.bsky.social

I hope you’ll feel better soon! My dysphoria sometimes goes away after a good chat with trans friends who understand what it’s like.

Yes sometimes we just feel down for no reason at all. Brains are weird.

Experimenting with light and shadow in my photography.

I've always thought the same, that gender fluid and NB people fall under the trans umbrella. But I've been corrected by NB people who see themselves as cis, so I'm confused.

Taken in Hanoi, 2023.