-Lucy-

nvm jdrii back

also jdrii is dead
i killed him :3

how to uhhhhh

she wouldnt have wanted to see me like this, she wantrd me to be happy.
She gave everything so that i could live, so that i could have a nice life and not suffter, she fought for months, even years for me.
I should stop being so negative for the smallest things.

probably not

am i becoming the same thing i wanted to stay away as far away as possible?

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funnily enough, the times were im sad are because i start to think, and then overthink about meaningless stuff and i start to feel awful

i wanna turn off my brain permanently and just be a slave i mean a pet sorry i meant a cat

buh

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some time ago, i got a message from a friend questioning whether i was actually listening to what he said, or i was trying to "skip the conversation" given how dry my messages were.
I do listen to what peoplr say, but it's hard to me to expredd the fact that i did listen, wish i could be less "dry".

i see my friends being able to get along easily with other people, while i'm just here being awkward, and just responding "yea", "oo", "i see", etc. Repeatedly.
Wish i could be like them

sometimes i wish i had better communicating skills, and noy struggle so much while talking to someone
Wish i had more things to say or express, instead of being this empty, awkward thing.

silly

meow

Uhh heyy everyone says this place is better than X so I'm here now. Follow me if u like hardcore music cause that's what I do ! Also here's some art I'm still working on so this post isn't boring idk