sierra

bro.. just let me be ????

you’re too sweet 💕💕💕

i hope you have a good day

laundry is swapped. i need a nap.

time to go swap laundry

i dont want to do anything today... i hate this so much

id typically wait to smoke but im not doing so good so im smoking now.. fuck it

this is due in like 4 days...

got another paragraph done... almost one page written out of like 6 that i need.

they say you shouldnt eat 2-3 hours before bed, so it depends on when you usually fall asleep.
my husband works thirds and eats around 11a-12p and goes to sleep around 2pm and then wakes up at 7pm. he does snack while at work but he only eats one actual meal a day and im so fucking jealous of him

want to take a bath.. body aches.. but im gross and dont need to bathe in my own filth and also, i think my bathtub needs a scrub.. ugh

137.4
i was going to play that trick or treat thing but i had to know how much ive gained this week....
i wish i didnt need to know.
i was already spiraling...

wieiad threat for oct 8
-coffee with sf creamer (45)

i have to force myself to get consistent on pilates and eating better. i have too. no more excuses, no more temptation, no more giving in..

eating my snack box today since i didn’t yesterday (i binged on “all of” garden - there’s still tons of leftovers from it too so idk what to do about that - may eat the soup?).

may have a yogurt as well. dinner will be beef chunks, roasted potatoes, and idk what veg yet.

i really just want to sleep forever. my brain hates me and being awake feels torturous.

thank you for that ashes.. it just feels so heavy these days

💕💕🫂🫂

ilysm 🥹

morning friends in my phone
i survived the night..

* right. omg

sending love tight back 🫂💕

both pups are snuggling up for the night. hopefully it helps ease me some

im sorry you seem to understand so well. its truly overwhelming and exhausting feeling like im behind no matter where i look

💕🫂

im losing my mind tonight. sleep is going to be hard to come by

i dont think you heard me out then /sarcastic

i want to eat better
exercise
be a better mom
be better in school
live more
enjoy life
eat less
get toned and skinny and not fat
make more money somehow
be better about finances
everything
it’s all so close
and so out of reach