ramb.

lucky me.

i know what the roaring is luv what d'you mean i missed it .

the bloody what

sorry luv.

what am i to you. nothing

alright well guess i'll go die then

[ no i didnt hear anything What? Who said that? ]

its almost like i'm being written by a lesbia[ gets yanked off screen by a cane ]

something possessed me i didnt do that of my own volition

. . ha.

[ at that, he pauses. looks down at the counter. ]

well. y'know. i'm just an old power strip. really, nothing special at all. but kris—good ol' kris, that didn't matter to them. they played with me just like any other toy.
things change, luv—people change. i don't blame them for moving on.

i hardly get to pick and choose, luv. couldn't tell ya.
if you're thinkin' i'm in any better a position than you are, well, i've got news for you.

luv, ol' tenna doesn't even let me touch the points.

[ he pours them another glass without a word. ]

don't make assumptions about things you haven't got the first clue about.

'course i do. just so happens i consider them rather important.

[ he raises an eyebrow at them. ]

not like you lot give me a real welcoming environment 'round 'ere, chum.

like i lost a bet, eh. that really all you lot think about? money and gambling?

[ he slides the drink across the counter toward the pippins. ]

i am where i am 'cause of kris, luv. what i want? for them to be happy. that's what.

a drink, or a goal?

[ he smirks, and begins pouring the pippins a drink without waiting for an answer. ]

. . . s'pose it's just where i ended up, is all. i didn't make my way to the tv world by choice, luv.

what i want? don't know what you mean, luv.

i'm just a power strip, luv. haven't got anything to do with the bloke.
if you need someone to blame so bad, blame queen.

s'pose i wouldn't notice something like that.
after all, i wasn't there before.

somethin's always my fault, innit.

no problem, luv.

sure it won't be the easiest thing. but hardly anything worth doing is.

well. . . i'd start by being honest.

best thing you can do is try and earn it, luv.

he knew you made a mistake. he's made plenty of his own.

. . . i told you, luv. freedom's a dangerous thing to play with. could be, he knows that too.

. . . but?

you were afraid.

[ he looks back up, meeting her gaze. ]

it wasn't mike who felt that fear. battat did.

. . .

[ he sighs. refills her cup. he looks down at the counter for a moment before speaking again. ]

you were afraid of losing him, but you tried to spend that time with him masquerading as someone you're not.

. . .

i see.

[ he looks down. ]

well, then, it's no wonder you were afraid.