Cheebs

When I adopted Jake, I didn’t realize how much we’d help each other heal.

His owner had passed away resulting in him being surrendered. Soon after adopting him, my brother passed.

We both lost our people, but we’ve found comfort in each other. I love you, Jakey.

Boss baby

For me, grief feels heaviest in the mornings.

The anxiety upon waking up is almost immediate. Sleep is a brief intermission from reality, and when I wake up, I remember everything.

I hope mornings get easier. 💛

This is what my floor looks like sometimes

We just like… have to keep folding laundry for the rest of our lives and I don’t want to accept that.

Okay so here’s the thing

Saying “I’m not racist” as a white person just misses the point.

Being white means benefiting from systems built on racism, regardless of your beliefs or intentions.

And the goal isn’t to deny that, it’s to stay aware of it and DO something about it.

I have cancelled the holidays this year, just wanted to let y’all know

YouTube video by Cheebs My First Time Hitchhiking! A Night of Solo Camping.

New Video is up!

My first time hitchhiking after a night of solo camping!

youtu.be/U-Tw-hCpQk8?...

nothing hits like the moment you decide to leave a social event

One unexpected thing about grief is realizing how little I’ve cared to check my CCV or viewership over the past month.

I have no idea what the numbers look like, and while I know they matter for us full-time creators, it’s been freeing to let that go for a bit and not care.

The thing about grief is that you eventually return to ‘normal life,’ but still feel so far from your ‘normal self.’

It’s a terrible feeling. Wanting to be present and enjoy the moment, yet feeling unable to.

this is how September felt

live over on Twitch!

hanging out, playing sledding game with the community, maybe some waterpark sim after. 💛

Twitch.tv/Cheebs

there is still joy to be had.

in the breath you give to aspens,
in the book you were reading,
in stillness, in “thought of you” gifts, in meals shared with friends,
in hobbies you loved.

in the sorrow, in the heavy. joy lingers. and i will try to feel it.

cheebs - Twitch she sub on my tember until i cry. ☼

I’m live on my Twitch channel, starting a playthrough of Spiritfarer 💛

Twitch.tv/Cheebs

Sending you love. I’m sorry you know this pain. 💛

One of my favorite tricks for cold weather camping is boiling water, pouring it into my plastic water bottle, stuffing that bottle in the sleeping bag, and then sleep cozy toasty warm all night long!

Just make sure the bottle isn’t leaking

💛

thank you for your kind and loving words. as i navigate this new chapter of grief, the kindness of both loved ones and strangers means more than i can ever put into words. hearing about your own experiences with grief makes me feel deeply seen. accepting help is hard, even in grief.

thank you 💛

I love this. Thank you 💛

I think it’s important to also give yourself compassion and grace in this.

For me, when I feel like I’m dropping the ball, if I beat myself up about it, I have zero motivation to get back on the horse.

It’s hard right now. Everything is. You’re doing the best you can. 💛

My recent rescue pup, Jake, has made me a morning person and I looooooove it. There’s something about being awake while the rest of the world is sleepy. It’s like a little *me time*

I haven’t hopped on here in a minute.

Recently my big brother unexpectedly passed away, and I’ve been in the trenches of grief.

I miss him. Every day hurts. But it’s going to be okay.

cheebs - Twitch co working with @littleleggies

Hey all.

I’ve been away from streams and some socials because I am navigating the grief of unexpectedly losing my brother recently.

Due to that, I am taking time away from stream.

right now @littleleggies.bsky.social is live on my channel for me. Go show her some love.

www.twitch.tv/cheebs

SUMMER FOREVER

YUP…

The rumors are true

I am starting Wind Waker for the first time!!!

Twitch.tv/cheebs

Frickin’ 5-head over here

Same. But I don’t think so :(

Listen.. all I’m saying is I just adopted an elderly dog and he would love some new toys 😌💛

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