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Girl saaaaame

Holy FUCK I am extremely trans right now. I'm such a girl. Girl girl girl 💕

I can see that. Wish I was there to help you with it <3

It's okay 🥺 Lord knows you should only come to this place when you want to

missed youuuuu <3

Coming out of hiatus to tell you you're beautiful ❤️

Turns out being accused of being a pedophile and having to explain your mental illness to defend yourself can really kill your horny. Be back in a couple days, folks ✌️

I'm sorry. I've just had a bad day, and it's got me pretty defensive. I genuinely get what you're saying. I just feel like a lot of people have tried to tell me I'm a bad person today, and I'm just trying to show that I'm not. I do genuinely try to be ethical and considered with my porn consumption.

But sometimes, you see something, you enjoy it, and you move on.

I'm genuinely asking: do you vet every single piece of porn you watch? Scratch that: every piece of media? I'm not saying it doesn't matter, I'm a writer, I believe very strongly that the context in which a work of art was made is one of if not the most important thing about it. (cont)

Okay, I didn't compile a list, but genuinely, if you want, I did check, and will again tomorrow. I'm getting in bed right now, but if it would genuinely ease your mind, I will get as much information about the videos and pictures I used as I can find tomorrow.

make an inference. I'm not saying I can't be wrong--but I know the warning signs, I know ethical places to get my porn.

I mean, at this point, you're getting into bigger, systemic issues. I'll agree that the porn industry is often fucked up--but do you want me to track down every person I ever jack off to, and ask "hey, is it okay if I masturbate to this?" You can use, y'know, context clues, media literacy to (cont)

I'm not glorifying anything. I was one of those kids you're talking about. Like, I don't want to play the "it's not real and therefore has no further implications whatsoever"--but, I mean, do you react the same way when John Wick kills a dude?

moderate their content for years.

I have no reason to believe any of the porn I used was genuinely non-consensual. If anything I ever post is proven to be, I will gladly and without hesitation take it down. I've since checked--all those captions I made were either from mainstream studios, or have been on platforms that (cont)

Last I checked, it's VERY unfinished, but I loved what I saw of a visual novel called re:Dreamer. Shockingly well written. Helped me figure out some of my gender feelings. Waiting for a full release.

Okay I fw this reasoning heavy actually

Appreciate this last bit in particular, especially as someone who's got a fair bit of neurodivergency myself.

Idk. I get the instinct to say "hey this person seems like they might be dangerous," but I'm very much not, so it really pissed me off, and I felt like I needed to say something.

Reposting with hashtags so the people I think need to see it have a better chance of doing so.

#ageplay #incest #caption #porn #fantasy

a way to cope with her trauma. So do I. That's all. But, again, maybe I've been a bit blind to how that could be seen. So maybe I should be on the lookout for a new pfp.

PS. I'd also like to touch on me using Laura Palmer as a PFP. David Lynch is one of, maybe my favorite artist of all time, and I believe Twin Peaks to be his greatest work. I'm not blind to its themes; me using Laura isn't a celebration, it's a statement of relatability. Laura used sex as (cont)

and I hope that will stop happening eventually, too, as I find healthier coping mechanisms.

Thank you for reading all this.

TL;DR I'm not a pedophile, I'm just unhealthy

who isn't part of this little community I've been in, I'm considering deleting the ones I've already posted, and certainly don't think I'll be posting anymore.

I want to close this out by saying I will never, ever hurt anybody. The only intentional victim in anything I'll ever do is myself, (cont)

And I HAVE been kind of overwhelmed by the attention they've been getting--I haven't checked, but I feel like these have easily been the most popular posts I've made on this site.

Now that they've officially "broken containment," and I've been reminded of how this all might look to someone (cont)

However, one of the screenshots I posted does bring up a good point. I've surrounded myself with some like minded people on here, and they were the intended audience of these captions. In that, I suppose I kind of lost sight of how... they might affect people who don't see this the way I do. (cont)

saw things I shouldn't have when I was just old enough to remember.

I'm not here to trauma dump. I know it's not healthy. But it IS a coping mechanism. I'm a writer. I put myself into my fiction. And I write about this the way that I do so that it brings me pleasure, rather than pain.

(cont)

While I'm not sure if I've ever been straight up assaulted, me and my therapist agree that I likely experienced something at a very young age that I don't remember, as there has literally never been a point in my memory that I didn't know intimate details of how it happens, and I definitely (cont)

used are of minors, or anyone else that doesn't or can't consent.

My next point will be highly subjective and personal. If you disagree with it, I can't really blame you, nor am I gonna change my mind.

I've said before on this account that I've never been SA'd. That's not entirely true. (cont)

be to know what I'm into is fucked up. But first of all, all all the stuff I've made captions of are from Reddit, have been around for years. Maybe I'm wrong, in which case I'll feel a great deal of guilt and take the posts down, but it feels HIGHLY unlikely to me that any of the images I've (cont)