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a week of travel to take an MSF course turned into two after a good acquaintance invited me to stay over until a halloween party, and then three when my ex-gf said she wants to see me before she moves, i was not prepared whatsoever to be on the road that much this month, but im very thankful for it🫠

putting all my tighter shirts and tank tops into a grocery bag and knotting the handles until next spring so im not tempted

holy shit

drivers seemed so much more polite when i carried my heavy water bottle to the store 🧐

soviet-era magazine cutout of a woman in a leather jacket

i need to make this jacket so fuckin BAD

sneezed and hurt my back, im now at the age when i need to square myself up and brace for sneezes 💃

sometimes you fumble into the most significant relationship youve had so far, and sometimes you have to let it go after sunsetting it for a week together for circumstances out of your control, its just how it goes

bout to get so autistic about fraggle rock

is it vain that i keep reflexively blowing kisses at myself when i catch my reflection or is that just good self-love

i type for "whats the best season of How It's Made" on my phone, and it manifests a gun and shoots me dead before i can even hit search

total of 11 meteors and one possible ufo spotted tonight!

i fuckin hate it out here it smells like theyre walking the whole goddamn herd of cows out 10 feet from the front door, it smells like cow outside, it smells like cow inside, and i can't fuckin sleep cos every time right as i'm about to drift off i get another whiff of the state fair GAH

this fuckin manager is acting like every bad thing happening tonight is meant to spite her specifically and every time she barks at me about some shit i had no control over i want to quit more and lore

i just heard the phrase "live podcasting" sir thats radio

RIGHT back to pacing back and forth in the kitchen again

how do i tell my mom that this actually isnt new, that we've never communicated well, that shes never known everything about me, that ive always had secrets, that ive always put her emotions in a conversation before mine

plague rides these lands, everyone i know is getting sick, we should all be masking

Three panel comic with crudely drawn stick people. A character whose rambles would not fit within the alt text limit will have their dialogue in the next image in this post. Panel 1: A blue person with a dark green jacket and bright orange anime glasses is talking to a journalist, while a person wearing a large t-shirt with the text "c m y k" and a pair of scissors cutting off the k rambles behind the journalist. Journalist: "Hey we need to show both sides on the confinement pits for chromatics issue, come debate this person?" Anime Glasses: "Go fuck yourself." Panel 2: As the background character keeps rambling, the journalist condescends. Journalist: "You know, I really don't appreciate your tone here." Anime Glasses: "Less yapping, more fucking yourself." Panel 3: Anime glasses holds the journalist's shoulder. There is still rambling on the side. Journalist: "How do you expect to be taken serio-" Anime Glasses: "You're enabling someone who'd never be taken seriously without you. I am not cleaning up your mess. Go fuck yourself."

Alt text for conspiratorial rambling Panel 1: firstly it is necessary to understand that the perverse urge to become green is a deviation that has been planted in our youth by the shadow druids, an evil organization that has been pulling the strings of our society to their nefarious ends since the invasion of- Panel 2: the ultimate goal of the chroma cult remains aligned with the shadow druids: as worshippers of the armageddon beast they intend to saturate our children and grind them into colorful paste to paint their profane idols! they believe these idols will protect them when facing the beast but they are wrong, so entirely wrong, about many things, unlike me, i am right for i am guided by the light of facts, logic, basic biology and fundamental color theory, and common sense and also- panel 3: -moon gnomes with their evil magics [spelled as "majicks"] hiding their pigments that they make from socks they steal from me, personally, that is where my socks go, and chromatics have never once taken responsiblity!

tone

coming back from the weekend trip with my girlfriend feeling like a whole new person

big life developments as it turns out trying to self-improve and be myself as much as possible while putting myself out there *does* in fact work and i now have a girlfriend and she's treating me to a planetarium date on valentines, never give up cos one day its a slog, the next, unimaginable joy

like seriously, i dread the weekends now because it means babysitting his ass for 18 hours straight instead of 10 on a regular workday

i cant fucking wait for the day that i can sleep longer than 6 hours on the weekend because i need to be up when dads up making sure that he isnt being an abusive piece of shit to mom

i keep a standing mirror next to my computer desk so i can look at the camera like its the office but only when im disappointed at myself

oh shit i need to get dressed wait no i need to shower wait no i need to eat wait no i need to do the dishes wait no i need to

nevermind it was chill but also why does the world feel like its ending when i