Brooke Torrin

me for the last three years: i can't wait to get away from my parents & see what's underneath this constant survival mode!!!

*gets out, sees that it's overwhelming suicidal ideation*

me: oh.

me: yippee i get an hour & a half break in the middle of my day tomorrow!!! what am i gonna do?!?!?

also me: the same thing i did last week!! go back to my apartment & kil—

"I enjoy cooking with wine. Sometimes I even put it in the food..."

- julia child

i survived my suicide attempt yesterday & all i got was the ✨opprotunity✨ to pay my first full month's rent

& while i'm darkposting....

i will never judge a trans person who unalives.

this world has never deserved us & will never deserve us. escaping it is understandable & maybe even rational.

"please stay & suffer for us because ✨you're worth it✨"

meanwhile, me & other transsexuals' reality:

i'd say i'd haunt the monsters responsible for my death, but i've had enough of this terrible, miserable reality. i just want peace.

when this happens & i unalive because of it, remember two things:

1. that i did my best to love you all as brooke

2. that trans people warned you this would happen & how it would impact our communities for years before the election

I humbly apologize for posting this. My phone service has been suspended due to lack of payment. If I didn't need the help, I wouldn't ask for it. If this kind of post is not allowed, then I understand if it gets deleted due to rules. I'm trying to remain calm. Thanks for your consideration.

help me pay for whatever bullshit this is here:

venmo.com/u/3848718155...

you ever just sit in your car after work & cry because your check engine light came on???

because same 😭😮‍💨🫩

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✨no✨

but huge thanks to everyone who's donated though. this is gonna be a massive help as i get through the next couple months.

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i saw! thank you so so so much!!! 🖤

time to have some fun & find inventively brutal ways to make nazis suffer :)

all elves are twinks but not all twinks are elves

i yearn to write more, yet i must do silly things like washing the dishes & laundry because i am unfortunately an adult

i'm watching creature commandos for the first time, & all i can say is that i've had g.i. robot for only six minutes, but if anything were to happen to him, i'd kill every nazi in the world & then myself

thinking of entering the brig economy (piracy, smuggling etc)

If there WAS a Christian afterlife (and not to insult any of you, but that's one of the more ridiculous ideas of an afterlife system)

My paradise would be designing torture rooms for people who've hurt children and animals.

venmo.com/code?user_id...

i'll ultimately be okay, but things are gonna be incredibly tight for the next few months while i work on paying down my maxed out credit & making ends meet.

if you're able, any help, no matter how small, would be greatly appreciated & would keep me stable while i transition into this fresh start.

all of this happened while i navigated the aftermath of my grandpa dying & my unaccepting, abusive parents kicking me out.

i had been preparing to make a move to minnesota happen, & had just enough savings & credit built up to go for it

that move happened, & i've started working again.

hey everyone

at the end of june, i was fired from my job as retaliation for reporting my boss to h.r. for outing me to a new hire. not coincidentally, i was let go the day before iowa's law removing civil rights protections from trans people went into effect.

ICE Is Deporting People to Africa on Nearly Un-Trackable Military Flights Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) is deporting people to African countries like Ghana on military flights that are nearly un-trackable.

It’s likely that this happened to them, in which case, again, this should be much bigger news. We can’t just disappear thousands of people without notifying anyone

www.rollingstone.com/politics/pol...

Hundreds of Alligator Alcatraz detainees drop off the grid after leaving site As of the end of August, the whereabouts of two-thirds of more than 1,800 men detained at Alligator Alcatraz during the month of July could not be determined by the Miami Herald.

More than 1800 detainees are missing after the closure of Alligator Alcatraz. Their families and lawyers can’t find them and they’ve vanished from the ICE database. Feels like this should be a much bigger story www.miamiherald.com/news/local/i...

I know I keep going on about this but

1) yes

2) it has DEEPLY embarrassed the media people who kept trying to pretend that this regime can be treated as legitimate, and

3) we absolutely cannot let them forget it

i want to clarify & say that i'm okay & not a danger to myself. just a very emotional & exhausted mess who's tired of being a targeted minority.

*googles what to do after you moved to the place you've sworn for years you'd unalive at if you ever got to that point, partly because it being four hours away from where you lived was an intentional choice to make the plan harder to execute & partly because it is genuinely where you want to die*