leo ☁️

i’m literally about to get in the shower and now i’m mad at myself cause i should’ve worked out before this

even if i just ate more protein more consistently and ate a little less overall i maybe wouldn’t even look that bad??? i just look so soft and gross and i hate it

i feel like i have a good start for muscles but man i would look so much better if i didn’t have any fat covering it all up

my fyp is suddenly getting filled with beastars clips maybe i should finally rewatch it and get caught up cause i don’t think i ever got past the first season

i probably would’ve gone longer if my mom wasn’t literally making food specifically for me and it would probably be a little weird if i didn’t eat it

i don’t remember this app being so ugly but anyways,,, i’m gonna say this isn’t too bad for having not fasted at all in at least over a year or two?? tbh i think i could’ve gone a lot longer though

i think i’m gonna go for 22 hours but if i don’t have to have dinner i might just keep going for like 36 ?? might be stupid when i’ve never done more than like 25 hours and haven’t fasted in over a year but idk

what if every time i get hungry i add like an hour or two onto my fast,,, i don’t know if that’s insane or smart

i just lit a hot chocolate scented candle and i’m wondering why i’m suddenly hungry,,,

how long do i have to fast to consider it like a detox or whatever? idk i feel like my body needs a reset but i’ve never gone for super long and probably shouldn’t on the days that i have to work

i’ve been eating when i take my meds and stuff but apparently all of them are actually fine to take on an empty stomach except maybe vitamin d is a little iffy ???

apparently iron absorbs best when you’ve been fasting but i was also told i should eat when i take it??

if i say i’m gonna fast for religious purposes then it’s not disordered,,,, right?

i wish i never overdosed, even though it was an accident now i know how fucking easy it would be

if i just start working out a lot is it possible for me to gain a good amount of muscle even if i don’t eat enough protein??

my aunt just asked me if my horse eats more than i do???

i kinda wanna grow out my hair but i feel like longer hair makes my face look fat and bad because it doesn’t frame my face as nicely ???

i feel like i missed my chance to be a girl and it would be weird to try now ??? like i can’t even paint my nails without being nervous that someone’s gonna see it and like point it out because i never do that and it’s different or whatever if that makes sense??

i need to wear a dress to my friends wedding next year but i haven’t worn a dress in probably like ten years and my legs are covered in scars so how is this gonna work

oops i forgot this app existed hi guys

it’s actually the fact that i can’t stop eating food that might as well have millions of calories and is absolutely awful for your body but yknow

i’m such a horrible person maybe i don’t deserve to be happy and that’s why i’ll never be skinny ????

gonna have to get used to having no days off i think

i feel like i may have written the wrong things or something i don’t know i need someone with experience to help me fill things out

i had to fill out an application on the spot all by myself and the person i was told to give it to wasn’t even there that was terrifying

wearing some of the nicest clothes i have and they are definitely not warm enough

like i have another job but i started off as volunteer and stuff so i never had to write a resume or have an interview or anything this is so scary what if my first impression isn’t good

i don’t know why i’m so nervous this is gonna be my first attempt at a proper adult job????

taking my resume in in like ten minutes someone wish me luck please

i just ate a slice of cheese and when i went to grab another i noticed it had a little bit of mold on it,,,, i think for my own sanity i’m just gonna pretend that the first one somehow didn’t have any and that i didn’t just eat mold