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period still hasn't come but my mental state is getting progressively worse so it's gotta be soon. right ....

periods are cool because once a month for 3-5 days i feel worthless and stupid and that i have failed every expectation of me ever

my period gotta be comin...... i feel like everyone only tolerates my presence

uugghgghhgh

need to refill my water bottle but i don't want to walk to the bubbler =__=

trying to drink enough water to keep up with the adderall dehydration has me pissing like a racehorse

day 1 of adderall.......... i had a little bit of a strong start this morning when i got in the office but now i don't feel anything At All besides just not being dead tired u__u

omg thank u 🙏🙏 it's mostly emotion regulation im looking for!!

ive only gotten CBT!!!

therapy has just traditionally not worked well for me bc i'm a very self-aware person. like most therapy is just reviewing things i already know so it's like..... a waste of time lmao

maybe an Adderall prescription will be what i needed to lock in and find a therapist

instead of crying when i am sad i am. going to start howling forlornly at the moon

thank u friend <3 i need to focus on the ppl who do fw me and not on the ppl that don't

im fine (lie) (they're queuing up lord huron at work)

i miss my friends (i saw a lot of them last week) (i'm seeing more this weekend)

:p

when u can tell someone lowkey doesn't fw u. but u can't tell for sure. so u can't address it. but you can TELL but you can't. you know what i mean

feeling evil and nefarious

h8 when the edible isn't hitting so i take a lil more after 1.5h and then the first wave hits within 5 minutes . like here we go ig

lowkey i used to be so embarrassed by my thick-ish Midwestern accent so I kind of trained myself out of it but I think I should re-embrace it

once again i am wallowing

LIKE?????? WTF

when i was 14 i was just addicted to roleplaying pokemon on the computer and my parents thought i was rebelling

but i also told my brother so now we're all in this together

my mom is going to fucking kill them when she finds out about it and then she's going to fucking kill me for not telling her

the internet has made things way too accessible tell me how my 14 year old sisters were able to procure actual piercing tools and learn how to pierce their own septums by watching videos

thank u sm friend 💜

trying to 😔😔

im doing too much and not doing enough etc etc

u know when u feel like u only either annoy or disappoint the people in ur life ? haha me either