flopmoder

what will i do when it's all gone

i am ball of anxiety and fatigue

and im gonna be such a mess

i don't get what i need til tonight

scared

ik im like way late on this but i might be too peoplepleasey

i love my friends and my partners are my best friends :)

i wish i cared about what i wanted to do more than what i should

i want my life another way so fucking bad

it's rough chat

my status effects are good im well fed and my hormones are fine and im not tired enough to sleep and im not thirsty i have a clear mind and i would be so less stressed and with a one or two bedroom spot to myself and some online friends to play fpses with and a rotating cast of fwbs in the city

i wish i were single i wish i were single i wish i were single i wish i lived alone i wish i had friends i wasnt stupid attached to i wish i hsd confidants who arent wrapped up in the social circles im in i wish i could afford my hobbies again i hate being relied on fuck a blast radius fuck tuis

you are digging for something that isn't there

u cant all want me all the time its not viable

whys everything management and balancing and juggling

the end of it approaches

my life is so cool i hate it

wait i need my shot

im about to fucking snap give me some fucking space

what do i do what do i do what do we do here

notif pull from 1/4 of a train ride + 2 hour depression nap

oh ^^

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

if i avoid it it'll fester

every time i think about it i feel like throwing up

at least i might get to be single if it all blows up

i dont even know how to reconcile this one tbh it feels intractable

exhausting and necessary probably the worst combination of traits

always running management with these girls

wtfffff im so lucky