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guys being the boss is so fucking ass........ bc i wanna hehehaha with everyone and i do but also i need to be the one to put my foot down about everything and i dont wanna come off as a dick but ughjkdfgbnjkdfbgks

just remembered that oomf drew shadow as the convict...... what if i ask him if he'd be interested to join the call for artists.......... 👁️👁️

lrp im so obsessed with their oc when is it my turn to be bullied by a hot woman 🚬

happy valentines. have this deranged sex comic i was drawing for a zine but abandoned (1/3)

maybe im just being pissy but im sick of people taking a Tone with me

okay still arguably the most normal vday ive had in a long time but also i can feel the aro yearning kicking in and i kinda need a gun

ykw im gonna download all of bpb bc it genuinely is a crazy series for me to see myself in re: being aro and i’d be so sad if i were to ever lose it

my feed here is kinda sexy….. and im super rigid about my instagram feeds look so idk how to give feedback to the social team without sounding like a bitch lol

bpb treating romance like an affliction is everything to me….. shadow aching and being sick with it

this shit is unfuckingreal dawg

this is so unfair of me too bc i know they go through their own challenges and deserve every good thing headed their way but it's like......... fuck i hate being envious about literally anything it's such an ugly feeling

i promise i love my friends and im always happy when good things happen to them but also like haha hiiiiiii @ universe when will it be my turn

if it’s any consolation mascs also can get railed and dominated and humiliated 🤓

im being fucked over by a local cinema and i feel like im being too nice about the situation given how strongly the team feels about it. which is a good thing ig for the lead to have an objective approach but regardless im grateful for their spite and outrage when i dont have the capacity for it

being so serious rn i miss sonic the hedgehog. like it’s not even about shadow rn i miss my stupid goober son

im supposed to go get hotpot with my friends but . i hate rushing soooooo bad like genuinely nothing gets under my skin more and my sister is stuck in traffic with the car and im tempted to just bail but i know im gonna be even more miserable staying home

okay self pitying #completed im still tired as hell but i need to get back to the team with an update soon

ultimately i decided that we can just stick to our original timeline bc it’s a week difference but wtv i dont have it in me to brain all of that rn. im gonna doomscroll on tumblr or read porn or something

drove / was stuck in traffic for three hours, got home but was too tired to actually go inside so i took a meeting inside the car for another hour, crashed out over the iron lung release being earlier than expected for 1.5 hours 👍🏼

mostly the emotional support thing though. we’re now far enough into the project for me to get anxiety about letting everyone down like what if everyone works hard for the event and i just disappoint them and everything just falls apart and . okay ykw that’s enough im gonna go have dinner at 11.25pm

on paper my sister is on the team as program coordinator but in reality she’s just here as emotional support and for me to bounce ideas with

okay i think i did it. well 2 out of 3 anyway but the third one is for tomorrow morning so i'll do it later lol

okay making deals with myself.... i can read more of the fic if i finish at least one (1) briefing doc

sndw fic where they meet their future selves who are together and apparently future shadow is dead set on embarrassing their younger selves and the secondhand embarrassment im experiencing rn makes me wanna die

so incredibly unbelievably unserious

i think i may be the oldest person in this damn committee which tracks bc im running the damn show and it’s really a non-issue but . i do feel like a kakak to everyone given my age 🥹

this is about the iron lung fan screening event btw lol im recruiting people to help me put it together but im falling apart at the seams

im cracking guys. this is the most locked in i'll need to be in over a year bc i didnt do anything meaningful in my AE job last year

dont tell mr iplier i told you guys but he confirmed on a member's stream this morning that the movie's coming to seasia 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

i just bought regular coffee from the same brand for them on shopee bc i cant be bothered to navigate whatever emotional hell is bound to come if i mention it