xin

Just remembering it and trying to think it through gives me anxiety again and that in of itself is proof I have lasting effects from that incident. Man I feel like such a loser. It wasn’t even my fault but I let it affect me. This sucks.

I’ve all but forgotten about her day to day but I think I’m just overall more alert to how people treat me online. Because I wasn’t like this before and it occurred to me that it must be because of this

Today I woke up and was reflecting on why I have been so sensitive to people blocking me on social media and I realize actually I think I just have lingering ptsd from when a friend I considered to be close to me blocked me out of the blue, ghosted me, and then told all our mutuals she was “worried”

Ugh I’m gonna have to call it in to work again tomorrow my body giving out and I didn’t even do anything today

Hungry and tired and hungry

#FF14

ill get back to the grind soon but for now i like drawing mediocre things i guess !!!

my art is def stagnating again now that i haven't really drawn anything outside my comfort zone in a month or so but its been nice to just draw the same easy thing over and over again?

so anyways I’m in pain as expected wtf

Yeah…. I’ve been slowly changing my diet over the years but it’s rough. I killed my gut when I was young and now I sow what I reap. Thanks for the advice, it’s a good reminder every now and then that I need to really try a bit harder 💀 sighs

I pray when I do eventually pass out from exhaustion that I wake up and don’t spend all of tomorrow clutching the bathroom door but rather being productive at work 🤡

At this point gut issues and me are inseparable. I am here at 6am letting the world know that if you ever come across a xin that’s not suffering from stomach pain she’s an imposter.

I have this theory that kids just experience less of irl and have a lower literacy rate in general. so the two factors create kids who can’t relate because they have so little experience to begin w and also being able to relate to anything (understanding a metaphor) is like a revelation to them lol

But also this is a symptom of a bigger problem fr 🤡 the number of “analysis” videos on YouTube these days that I’ve been baited to watch without anything past 10th grade English class level analysis is just…. Too many……..

They didn’t get a proper education in media literacy so metaphors are like really important to them rn 😔

WEEKEND FREEDOM. for 2.5 days

Especially after my fitness craze a while ago I found out that outside is super enjoyable (only in 18-24C weather when it’s blue sky and not raining out) otherwise I’m gonna stay home and draw thanks

and being hot too but it doesn’t happen as often in Canada as u can imagine lmao

growing up made me realize I don’t hate socializing I just hate being cold outside because ya girl neurodivergent

Stomach hurt been hurting all day no work progress help me I’m going to explode soon

Is it just “it could’ve been me if they just looked for real talent >popularity”????? Is that it???? Because I don’t get it 😂 I’m so old someone explain pls

since I’m back on eng twitter I see some vtuber tweets from time to time and someone explain why people r mad at companies for not hiring newbies

everyone will just record a tiny bit of the song and me and my friend will do all the audio engineering and visual work to put it together as a little cover! :D

since not everyone is on twitter is anyone here willing to donate ur voice for a tenipuri group cover? 🎾🎵

is this what it’s like to die irl and be able to see what happens after as a ghost 💀

is crazy u retire fr and it’s so obv who was ur friend and who wasn’t. lol. lmao even.

新年快乐家人们！happy new year!!

#初音ミク

SO TRUE LEISHEN ur so smart

china this deep seek that

maybe it’s time to look for avenues for employment in china in the long term

YouTube video by Zepla HQ Where FFXIV Dawntrail's Story Went Wrong

www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1bc... great video. haven't watched a zepla video since her crazy transphobic tangent from a while ago but this honest to god is like most of my complaints about dawntrail fr.