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i mean this and suliranin helped me keep going.

a lot has been going on lately. im not feeling well (physically and mentally) but this song comforted me.

Tangerine Boulevard

i cant stop crying open.spotify.com/track/3Rn2eM...

not bad

the urge to just walk around the city with my thoughts

and suddenly i cant feel my throat

von dutch me thinks

craving for taho but i'm afraid my gout will flare up again 😔

been very anxious since the aftershocks are still acting up, but listening to this had made me ease a bit.

Suliranin

open.spotify.com/track/5PlhD7...

finally kare-kare!! my gout hasn't gone away but idc i miss this so much

thankfully we just got hit by minor intensities here bc i can barely walk if the quake is quaking cynthia!!!

the universe was evil to me when my gout was triggered in the middle of the earthquake...

they want me dead!!!!

You have no idea how much I love these motherfuckers and want to traumatize them even further

this is so soft it's basically transcended fluff and come all the way around to being a kink again

what is pining if not denial persevering

bc i got overstimulated

maypa magbinisaya na lang ko mas dili pa nuon awkward HAHAHAHA

like hindi gani ako ganito noon pero may mga cmates ako na naga-usap ng ganito as in ginaiwasan ko talaga kay parang talaga akong buang kung magstorya

oh you better brace yourself when you hear *straight* davao conyo LMFAOOOOO

UP ALL NITE (Feat. SUMIN)

AND I LOOOSEEE MYY PATIEEENCE OHHHHHH open.spotify.com/track/403Tlz...

ben and ben in the houseee !!! 🥹

i think once im done with everything to get this degree, im not gonna even practice it in the field bc my moral ethics cant handle the environment it upholds.

anyway that's all thanks for coming to my ted talk

in fact, i was an intern in the regional office but thank god i didnt witness any of it behind the scenes (bc i was assigned to the qa/qc dept). it might not be true to all, but one thing's for sure: the const. n bidding depts have a lot on that bc that's where the negotiations take place

non verbatim, they said that they wanna seek connections from the govt just to get benefit from other ppl's acts of corruption,, all to get wealth. do they even have a conscience????

i admit, i wanna get rich too but i am also a taxpayer. i dont wanna flaunt those that arent mine.

i've been studying for more than 5 years now, but it feels like im wasting my time staying here.

not only that, but it was frustrating to hear some of my blockmates (who were my friends as well) telling others the same line: "dali mangita ta ug backer para makapangurakot sad ta"

but that's not the point. im still a student and im working on with my pending reqs (i.e. pass their mockboards and exit exams) but reading those articles and a lot of discourses made me think abt finishing this degree being pointless.

for context, it's abt the flood control project cases being circulated online. im not from manila but i witnessed the flood when we went on a field trip there last year. it was our first night there and man,, it was just a rain shower but the water was rising up til our ankle (in less than 15 mins)