whim

Jay, what's that over there?

i'm too overbearing
i really should just leave

I forgot to post on my bsky but I'm currently on day 5 of my Philippines trip!

Tuna the black cat curled up and sleeping on the floor.

tuna.

this became too long of a thread. i need to ruminate some more now.

what i hope is that the next couple of months can help me, but only time will tell. i'm nearly a full month out of this "break up" and i seem to just be unable to function. i wish humans weren't such social creatures. i can't let myself try to latch onto another poor soul that has to keep me stable

i am amidst a change for myself, but i can't help crying every time I think of how inadequate i am or how negatively i impact those around me.
i know at the very least that no one here will care all to much about me, so just finally putting it all together to get it out of me.

as someone that was once a close friend had told me over and over again: i am self centered and disregard those people i lean upon emotionally. with how easily i scar, i will probably take all of these truths with me to the day i finally die

journaling may help with my mess of a thought stream, but considering how it was a journal that first got me institutionalized over 10 years ago, i become hesitant at writing anything i think down. as for confiding in others, i don't think i can ever do that again.

as each day goes by, i feel my sanity waning. my intrusive thoughts spiral to worse and worse places. i don't know what i want for myself specifically at this time, but i don't want to bother anyone with my mess of a life.

plane tickets acquired.

at least she's content

feeling so isolated and alone again today, it's suffocating
but i don't want to bother anyone with my depression vibes
such is the life

all of alena's samba gifs coming in handy for hangyodon samba

it's like having a problematic friend
you want them to get better cause they used to be fun and kind, but they refuse to do so

i'm gonna have a major joker moment one of these days in regards to toumyu

feisty little thing

this is centered around my issue with them assigning ichi with BDE, this is probably just a me-problem

i tend to worry that i watch with too much negativity in mind, but i wouldn't be this critical if it wasn't something i enjoyed, right?
yeah... it's not me who's wrong, it's the children....

i feel like i'm going crazy
or is general toumyu production just gaslighting me

hahaha honestly tho i'm not sure how i'm gonna afford the next 2 vet visits
i haven't been paid in over 6 months, struggling a bit with my personal savings...

my baby did so well during her first vet visit today 🖤

Trump Won — And That Means Project 2025 Is Here The 920-page document lays out a detailed far-right vision for Trump’s return to the White House — and touches on every aspect of American life.

Donald Trump won, which means Project 2025 is here.

The 920-page document lays out a detailed far-right vision for his return to the White House — and touches on every aspect of American life

like all the background noise and camera mishaps that seems to always get picked up aside, my main beef this arena would maybe get me sword cancelled cause they're about particular actors 😶
it gets spurred on in the moment cause of watching it "live", but i've had issues since hanakage

a lot of stuff out of the iwainokuji aichi shows that's rubbing me the wrong way, but can't talk about them in public so i will continue to let it fester inside cause that's totally healthy

working on the neckline, but i only have one set of size 5's, so we struggling a bit here

hopefully plain white shows up fine on light gray
gonna be my first time doing a complex pattern like this with multiple colors. can't wait~

i figured out my kon sweater color palette 🥳
((yes, it's just ichi coded-))

whole family complete
tkrb pls don't make another fox i'm beggin ya

my basic gauge would put each one around 4 inches max size so the plan is to have em walking along the shoulders
time to make 4 more