✨️❄️🌜 Gwyd 🌛❄️✨️

Me when I'm trying to be productive on the weekend but I drink coffee and take my meds to do so which means up to 3 hours of my day are taken up by shitting/sitting on the porcelain throne doomscrolling and waiting to shit. Save me.

I would love to see them be humbled! 🙏

I'm glad it's not just me!! I was thinking it (and also... more water lizard... another plant bird... come awwwwn)... they kinda look like parodies of themselves at this point. (but I love the lil fire guy, I can't help it 😭)

Not that I needed an excuse to avoid getting the sw1tch 2 and yet another game I'd play 4 hours of and then never touch again, but uh.... I hope he hates it and everybody else loves it and he has to hear everybody talk about it forever <33

The worst person I know is obsessed with p0kemon and one of the versions is literally his name oh my god I know he's fucking going to make it his whole personality forever now... 🙄🙄

Oh my god it's so freaking cute 😭😭 the water guy looks like a little LPS!

I wrote a really long draft with updates but it was mostly the same but then I also got some sleep and feel a little better (for now). Same old same old.

Lowkey just wanted to cry all day. For no reason. Also about my body. My pain. The usual.

But I didn't wear it today. Unthinking. And now I'm sweating to death. Wtf. I hate thisssss

I've been overheating a lot recently (probably just from eating so much) and I decided not to wear an undershirt like I have been for months bc my skin has been really irritated and fucked up about it for a couple weeks. And I tried a new deo that actually seems to help my med-induced sweating...

Gross but I just need to vent

Yesterday was rough but eventually somebody came over to help me and yapped at me and I felt better.

Now today is a slow start and f3d3x isn't working... glad I'm not over there bruh 🙃

Bf left his hoodie in my car from when he went to the gym which means legally, it's now mine. >:3

Haven't heard from my mum in a while which is weird but I don't want to reactivate my fb just to see the vile content she's probably posting. Hm.

I was feeling SO good and fully rested for the first time in WEEKS and ofc that was quickly ruined. I'm so over it, man. I hate this shit.

Oh man, I wanted to try that soooo badly when it was first announced, but it wasn't anywhere close to me. Kinda surprised it's still around. Unsure if that speaks to its quality or not. 🤔

I'm having war flashbacks to the other branch.

Dying inside bc nothing is getting done at work bc the people that need to do stuff or have stuff to do are distracting each other and the rest of us are waiting on them to get the stuff done so we can do stuff, too...

But goddamn it has taken them YEARS to open the outlet and soon finally the grocery store where the food desert is, so like... yeah mayyyybe they could do it... 5 years from now. 💀

Idk, marketing people HIRE ME, I have some good ideas sometimes 🤪

There's so many things that we don't do but could that I feel like would be such a good idea. Like those little remnant craft stores where it's mostly scraps for pennies? Yeah, we should do that, too. And any profit for each biz should go to a diff charity or shelter we partner with. 🔥

All the shit that nobody buys after a month or two, or is broken beyond repair, or that we can't sell or donate to other causes for whatever reason? Let customers (and employees) destroy it. It would save my mental health some days 💀

But I'm glad I got through yesterday bc I wanted to break down and s/h yesterday so badly, but didn't. ...also really wanted to throw some glass at work but didn't for obvious reasons 🤪 I still think a G00dwill-sponsored rage room would be a fucking fantastic idea.

I also have a theory that after this week being awful, the "Friday the 13th" effect will be that today is good and chill, actually. Guess we'll see. 🤞

I felt a lot better pretty immediately after being released of my obligation to go to the thing. Bf said he had fun but missed me immediately. 🥺 today feels better.

Idk why but they changed the name of the double date gc to be about me and I just wrote "not in the mood" and God I want to kayemesz... told the main guy that I'm sorry but I can't do it today but my partner will still be there and to have fun but I would bring the vibe down so can't do it...

Noping out at the last second bc somebody did something minor in a different chat that really just cemented the fact that I'd start crying at the drop of a hat and I'm not prepared to be an embarrassment like that rn.

Socializing is good for me right... the guy whose house we're going to is very interconnected and it would be beneficial for him to have a good mental picture of me.... but God I just... I just want to stay home and cry.

I want to back out of movie night so bad... like, I'm not contributing food and I just don't... have the mental energy for this shit today. I need to go home and sleep so I don't bitch out someone... I was already miserable at the last meetup, I don't want to seem perpetually upset.....

My goal for this week is basically to not have a mental breakdown and idk if I'm gonna fuckin make it 🙃

I'm just like... hoping and praying that us working together will make things better and not worse. 🙏