wynne

hate being this oppressively sad that it taints everything. just feel like going away til it's better so I stop bringing everything down.

empty

an illustration of my character Park, laying down. She is cropped by the shoulder, her head cracked open and eyes dark and vacant. Wilted purple and white flowers are placed in the hole in her head, and a yellow-y liquid rot dribbled from her eyes and mouth.

⚫ you neglected what you planted in me
but at least the warm rot feels like love

can't sleep

that's all that they really want anyways. just push it out of sight

whatever. just gonna pretend I'm fine again so I don't have to deal with that

it's just what they think they're meant to do I guess bc there's no other mental health services other than putting us in a room for two weeks

id be even more alone with my thoughts and with less support. how's that gonna do anything but make matters worse lol

someone would check to make sure I'm taking my meds (I never miss them) and otherwise I'd be in a hospital gown cut off from contact from every person who gives a shit for me and just. sit around til they let me go. nothing will have changed.

could not possibly want to go into inpatient care for 2 weeks less. it's kind of incredible that family legitimately think that would do anything at all to help my situation

i wish my case worker would come back

Redrew another 2023 piece 🙂‍↕️ nothing to see here

Illustrated original character design sheet of a girl with pale hair dressed in earthy tones of brown and green, holding a letter that trails magic.

✦ 𝕾𝖕𝖑𝖎𝖓𝖙𝖊𝖗𝖘 - 𝔍𝔲𝔫𝔦 ✦
-----𝔬𝔯𝔦𝔤𝔦𝔫𝔞𝔩 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔞𝔠𝔱𝔢𝔯

A painting of a pale-skinned slender man with his bare back turned to the viewer, against a black background. He loosely drapes a black cloth around his hips.

quick study ✌️ #art #oc

Yennefer #Witcher

whatever. im ugly and inconvenient. can't really separate that from the rest of me. can't help if it keeps ppl wanting to keep me at arms length. it is what it is, as ever

just end up feeling like there's gotta be something wrong with me to get carved out of friendships and spaces. i really try my best so why do i get treated like persona non grata. maybe I'm just too mentally ill? too sad? maybe it freaks ppl out even if I hide it. it's ugly and inconvenient

just can't distract myself from how i just don't feel like ive got anywhere I rly fit in. feel like a guest everywhere

ily

ily

sorry 4 being a sad sack. just so damn lonely. feel pretty left behind by ppl and it's kind of suffocating. even if it's all just in my head.

no one care me ass night

gotta stop being sick so I can get back to the kitchen gruhhh

ah.. :( i'm sorry

I'm waiting

#SIGNALIS

hi cute friend

i had such a great time but the silence & isolation when i return can be so hard to deal with. at least i have lachlan

its so lonely here ..

concert tiiiime

in Boston for the show and I feel better than I have all week !!!